DAY 2 OF 15
explanation of 2 / 15 further down
I feel a fraud going as I've only attended a couple of their meetings, but I will probably go.
I am going to take a little platter of meats, Ham, Chicken, & Salami, so I have something to eat.
A big job we got done yesterday was to take down the gazebo over our outdoor seating area, and store it for now. I was thinking of putting it out at the gate for someone to take away, but as Stew said, it would just look like a pile of metal poles. Pointless.
You can bet your bottom dollar I'll rearrange it again too.
ABOVE: I am so happy with these hydrangeas. I grew them from cuttings, and they are doing really well. There's three more that are coming along well too... but don't have flowers yet.
Alrighty, time to start the day. I need to get to the supermarket for the ham etc. OH! I can add cheese to that too. Yummo.
I've just been looking at my calendar, in relation to my new Challenge.
I want to make every 2nd Saturday my 14th day, so for the next two weeks I will be doing the Challenge slightly different to my plan.
I will be doing my Challenge for 15 days to begin with, then have Christmas Day 'off'.
Then Boxing Day will be Day 3 (so I skip 1 & 2) ... that way I'm back on track with the days.
I know you didn't need to know all that, but I don't want there to be any confusion because my first 'rotation' is 15 days, instead of my 13 / 1 CHALLENGE! lol
And yes.. you can feel ALONE in a room full of ladies.
I don't think I will return next year.
Sorry for being a downer. The ladies at this group are LOVELY. I just don't feel like I fit in.
I had some nice conversations over the 3 hours I was there, but yeah. I just don't feel comfortable there.
2.35 pm: Happily home again, feet up and thinking about what to have for my dinner.
I've got some really lovely Wagyu Beef mince out, so I might make a simple stew with it. Have it with some grated cheese on top.
I'm going to WW this evening. I might record a SMALL gain. Not startling really. But, I'm on the right track again.
Though a thought popped into my head this morning. It is worth pondering? ...
AM I TOO OLD TO BE BOTHERED WITH WHAT I WEIGH NOW?
DOES IT EVEN MATTER AT MY AGE?
WHO THE HELL CARES WHAT I WEIGH? WELL... EXCEPT ME.
DO I WANT THE LAST 20 YEARS OF MY LIFE TO BE DOMINATED BY DIETS? WORRYING ABOUT WHAT I WEIGH?
I JUST DON'T KNOW RIGHT NOW.
I FEEL LIKE MY LAST 45 YEARS HAVE BEEN ALL ABOUT MY WEIGHT.
I'M TIRED.
AND I'LL PROBABLY FEEL 100% DIFFERENTLY TOMORROW.
It's almost time to head off to the WW meeting. I'm hoping like hell it's not too bad.
I have not been dreadfully bad this past week.
It was the three weeks prior that were BAD.
Making Caramel Cornflake slice TWICE ffs! What was I thinking??
If I can get into the New Year a couple of kilos lighter than I am right now I will be so happy.
I just talked to Stew about how I'm feeling, age and is it worth it? And YES, yes it is I suppose.
I was just feeling really down after being at the Patchwork Meeting, feeling like shit.
I am not sure if I will attend again... maybe I'll feel differently next year. Who knows.
Right, enough blithering ... time to put some face on and go to WW.
Wow. I'm down a whole 400 grams! Not much in the grand scheme of things, but it takes to within a kilo of my lowest weight this year.
I'm so thankful. Maybe this new diet is already doing some good?
Probably too early really, but I can still feel optimistic.
Now, time to chill out and watch a movie we taped from Sunday night. The Whale.
Catch you tomorrow, when I hope I'm in a better frame of mind.
Sorry again for being a bitch and moaner.
this sounds like an interesting and sustainable challenge. I hope it works out. I am sure you will keep us posted along the way!
ReplyDeleteIf you want to get rid of the awning, post the picture of it set up on one of the sales sites (like Facebook Marketplace). My guess is someone would want it in your climate.
ReplyDeleteEnjoy your luncheon. My daughter and I went to a Christmas Tea and enjoyed it. It is rare that I have the opportunity to go to a Xmas thing, so it was special.
My fifth quilt top (since July) is in the car ready to go to my long arm quilter. That one is for my youngest daughter. The list just keeps getting longer, another daughter and my niece are the next two.
Vickie
I commend you on your fabulous quilt making. I don't make quilts anymore, not that I made many. It costs SO MUCH to get them quilted professionally here, so I just don't. I have done a 'Quilt As You Go' quilt ... it was ok.
DeleteThe challenge seems to have given you a new boost. You will knock this on the head.
ReplyDeleteHmmm...those ladies must be jealous of you and your talent. So 4GetAboutEm! Teeheehee Ky Girl
ReplyDeleteNah they are quite lovely on a whole. I just don't fit in.
DeleteIt takes time to feel like you fit in. I'd go regularly for a few months before you give up. You have only been 2 or 3 times and have said they are nice people so try for a bit longer.
ReplyDeleteI said this when you first mentioned going, will suggest again.
DeleteI think going with a sewing machine and a lot of stuff puts up a sort of barrier/divider/wall. It also makes you stuck in one place.
I think this much better to take handwork and be able to sit and listen more easily. Move around to different people and ask what they are working on and their history of sewing.
My experience, better to listen at least 75% and talk 25% or less.
I also do not expand beyond the group time. I only see the people at the group and do not try to get together individually.
As isolated as you are, I would go regularly and work to be a part of it.
Vickie
I would be doing weight loss more for my health rather than the scales. Less weight means a lot less pressure on your joints (knees), back, helps with heart health blah blah. Marie, Melbourne
ReplyDeleteDoes it really matter what you weigh if your clothes are looser and you look good (which you do)? Seems like a lot of aggro for 5 kgs either up or down. Does Stew worry about his weight as much as you do? But as you say, tomorrow is another day. Audrey
ReplyDeleteI hear you about dieting. I've spent most of my adult life also dieting off and on. I am not happy with my weight but simply refuse to diet again. I refrain from buying rubbish, hardly ever eat takeaway food and try to always make a reasonable choice. Yes, I've gained some weight over the years but keeping nearly every day free from sugar and other rubbish is the best I can do now. I think changing habits and choosing wisely when shopping is all you (and me) can do now.
ReplyDeleteI think its not so much the weight as it is your health. A healthy and well maintained body should help in staying as independent as you can later in life. Keeping our arms rotating and flexible so we can wipe our own butts is a must. Being able to get up and down on your own is a must. Otherwise you're stuck where you are and a burden on someone else. Just my honest opinion. ;-) Ky Girl
ReplyDeleteI hear you re butt wiping! I broke my arm this year and was so pleased the other arm could reach!!!
DeleteI hope your arm is working correctly. Good luck! Ky Girl
DeleteButt wiping, butt wiping! OMG so funny. I see very obese people and do wonder.... how do they reach???? The things you think about....
DeleteI’m sick of dieting too….but like Ky girl said it’s more about our health, mentally and physically. have arthritis in my knee, my feet felt all the extra weight I were carrying and were protesting loudly. So I’m weight watching and 15 kilo lighter and feel better for it, but I enjoy a few indulgences along the way as well.
ReplyDeleteOoops it’s Jen, not anonymous.
DeleteWhen I first saw your big red letters rant about "does it matter at your age".... I thought you had an insensitive troll that you were yelling at. If some troll DID say those things to you, I am sure you would be pissed. But I think we all have those thoughts all the time. If you gained it all back you would be upset. Being on a constant diet is a drag. I know it is a constant struggle. Same struggle happening here.
ReplyDeleteAs far as butt wiping goes - Bidets are the answer. Toilet top type with heater water to be precise!
Woo hoo Chris that is fantastic! You are doing so well and even though the thought of being on a ‘diet’ can do our heads in, you clearly are doing it very well. I’m thinking you do in fact want to feel good, slim and happy but OMG it’s a real pain in the arse living it day in and day out! Congratulations,you’ve got this
ReplyDeletePlease don't always think of your diets as a "challenge" and painful, boring struggles. Just think that you are getting fit, healthy and attractive, talking about timescales, challenges etc. Means you see an end to the diet, when you can go back to your " normal" life. PLEASE just enjoy what you like but put your food into a smallish bowl, which then looks full, eat slowly and enjoy every mouthful. You are not on a diet, you will consider this the normal way to eat, have some treats but eat just till you feel satisfied, not overfill and bloated. Don't eat out on overpriced unhealthy food only as occasional anticipated treats. Don't feel you are punishing yourself consider it your new normal life. If you feel you can try not to eat after about 7 or 8 o 'clock two or three times a week then have breakfast at about 8. Instant, effortless fasting. I find it helps to clean my teeth thoroughly after last meal then it discourages me from evening snacking as I would have to go through teeth cleaning ritual again. Good luck, enjoy your new life, don't hate yourself, don't think of food as punishment that you will have to pay for, and stop thinking about it all the time! Best wishes x
ReplyDeleteI never eat breakfast. I have ONE main meal a day. Usually in the middle of the day. Something very small in the evening, if at all. I never SNACK.
DeleteIt is boring constantly being on a diet - but my mental health is affected so badly if I gain weight and I would figure that it's like that for most people, so in my opinion it is definitely worth it no matter one's age. I am recently widowed and had I also been obese I'm not sure I would have made it. You have done so well and there are going to be blips, but hang on in there. I love the sound of your new challenge. A day off is essential!
DeleteWell done Chris. Take care.
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