Monday, May 21, 2018


Today I have an appointment at the Diabetes Clinic in Hamilton.
It's to see the Weight Management Team, so I will get some good advice from them I hope.

The appointment is 90 minutes long!  Goodness knows why it's that long.  

I think there's a chance I will be put into a support group, that will be ongoing for about 6 months.  Kinda interesting.  I hope I get some good ideas on how to stay on track!

Though to be honest, I only have to think about daily needles to stop me eating chocolate and pies! lol

Onto something else now. Griffin has an after school job, working at a Boarding Kennels just out of town.  He found it through one of his school friends, her parents run the kennels.

The girl's Mum called in on Friday night when she dropped Griffin home.  A lovely lady.  We also got to meet Griffin's FRIEND.... strongly emphasize the friend says Griffin!  lol

ABOVE: Griffin and his friend.  Marley doing a photo bomb.

This morning, housework. Probably not much else until I head into Hamilton.


Ugggg. We have torrential rain... and I know for sure I'm going to be walking half a mile in the pouring rain to get to my appointment!  There is bugger all parking in the area of Hamilton I need to be at later on.  

The rain is coming down SIDEWAYS.... in huge gusts.  I thank god on days like this we are in a lovely brick house, with double glazing!

The dogs don't like it... so they are going bathroom in the bloody garage.  Grrrrr.  But I don't really blame them!  It's horrendous outside.

I'm wearing a top I got for a dollar from an Op Shop today.  Only I changed it up a bit:

ABOVE:  Too much???

Right, I shall have to head off soon if I am to find any parking within a mile of the clinic.

3.10 pm:  Feeling a little disappointed.

I thought it was a one on one meeting. WRONG.
It was a group meeting of people referred to the Weight Management Clinic.  We were told all about the programme, how it's run, who gets in, what it encompasses, bla bla bla.

After an hour and a half, we had to fill in forms to express our interest in being accepted onto the programme, fill in medical forms and then... WAIT.

It can take anywhere from 3-6 months to even GET ON THE PROGRAMME.  So, not holding my breath for any help/support any time soon.

Shame, as I was really hoping for some help and advice from MEDICAL PROFESSIONALS who know about diabetes.  
So, I suppose for now it's on with what I am doing, and hope I don't stuff it up along the way.

I'm now going to have a very late lunch then go and clean the garage, it STINKS.

Sadly (for them), the dogs no longer have free range in the garage.  I had to pick up three separate loads of shit today!  All done on the carpet too.  Grrrrr.
I know it's wet outside, but come on!  Lazy little shits.

Seriously thinking of getting a BIG outdoor kennel for them all.  At least for over winter.  My house smells SO BAD right now... wet, shitty dog smell.  NOT NICE.

Right... I'm going to sign off for the day now.  Just chillin, watching some TV, spending some quiet time with me man.

Sunday, May 20, 2018


Who stayed up and watched THE WEDDING?

Anyone else start to wonder if that American Bishop would EVER shut up?
Anyone notice how many of the royals and guests were trying not to laugh out loud?
It was hysterical.  And awkward.  
As Stew said, that man was making the VERY MOST of his time in the spotlight!

I kept wondering if someone would go up and drag him off the 'stage'.  *smiles*

But on a whole, a lovely wedding. Meghan looked adorable.  Super simple gown, stunning and elegant.  Perfect choice for her.   Queen Mary's tiara looked sensational on Meghan, I loved it.
It was worth staying up till almost 1 am to watch it.

And now, back to normality for us commoners!
Stew and I will be doing the freakin' grocery shopping.
Brylee wants to do some shopping... prom dress I think?

Griffin's prom outfit is sorted thank goodness.  He's wearing a new pair of black trousers that have never fitted Stew, and a nice black dress shirt, again one of Stew's that has never fitted him!  Rather lucky there, no expense for us at all!

So we will be out and about for a few hours today by the look of it.

Right, off to start the day.



We went to Hamilton around 11 am.  Got the dress and shoes for Brylee's Prom.
Then on to the supermaket for groceries.

Brylee saw some random guy working there, and was like... owwww he's nice!  So she flirted with him, then I convinced her to give him her phone number!

So she did... lots of red faces, her's and his. It was so cute.

On to the shopping.... we ran into a lady I'd known MANY years ago, so did some quick catching up, which was lovely.

Home.  Unpacked the groceries, then it was about 2.30 pm.  LUNCH!  Was starving, had a meal then felt super tired, so lay down for a nap.

Woke up at 6.30 pm!  Whoops!

So here I am ... updating for the first time today... rather late.

Want to see Brylee's dress?  OK... not as stunning as Meghan's but, still cute:

 ABOVE:  She fell in love with it the moment it was on her.  It was a bit more expensive than we would have liked, but oh well... it's her Prom after all.  There is a little sash around the middle, I'm going to replace it with a white one, to match the little cardi she will be wearing with it. (if it looks better than the blue one)

ABOVE:  Luckily we found shoes that were a perfect match too.

OH!  That rather cute guy from the supermarket text Brylee mid afternoon too.... and now they are going on a date!  LOL, if it goes well he's taking her to the Prom!  Result.

Because we had such a late lunch, we are not having 'dinner' as such.  A snack later on will do.

It's later on.  Just watching mindless telly tonight.  

Saturday, May 19, 2018


This morning's first blood test reading is the best number so far.... 6.3 !
That's awesome for first thing in the morning, I'm so happy.
5 weeks ago my morning reading was over 16.  WHOOP WHOOP, I know I'm winning.

Sorry this post is late.  I forgot to do it!  Stew wandered down the hallway just now and said to me "Are you alright?  Your family is getting worried... you haven't done a post this morning!"  ha ha ha.
Silly man.

But he's kinda right, if I don't post, SOMEONE inevitably rings/texts or emails me to find out "what's wrong?"

Nothing's wrong!  I'm just tardy.

Today Stew and I are going to the Tamahere Market.  I want to suss out the gazebos people use, because I MAY start doing that market too.  But I need a gazebo, and as they are rather expensive, I want to make sure I get the best one, value for money one.

So, that's where we are heading in about 20 minutes or so.


Well the market was fairly quiet today, usually it's packed!
But we did get to see and talk to several stall holders about their gazebos.  Which was great.

There were quite a few different gazebos!

ABOVE:  on a whole, the most popular one there was the TOUGHOUT one, and that's because of price.  It's a middle of the road price.  Not really cheap and nasty, and not mega expensive.

But after doing my research, I will probably go for a slightly more expensive one, so that I get longevity and good quality.  At this stage I cannot afford one, but will save up and in a month or two I can get one, then do the market.

It was good to have a good look around and see if anyone was selling stuff like mine, and today at least, no one was.

ABOVE:  It's a bit hard to see this stall holder's face, but he was pretty much scowling at me!  I think he thought I was taking a photo so I could copy his 'sayings'.  I reassured him I was interested in the gazebo brand, not his wares!

 ABOVE:  We were lucky with the weather while there, it didn't rain.  Now we are home, it is.

 ABOVE: Stew admired this little bottle holder/opener, so I convinced him to buy it.

ABOVE: How cute is it?  I'm sure it will come in handy.

And doesn't my man look good!  He's losing weight and is looking dang hot!  Though I think he's hot no matter what he weighs.  Love him to bits.

ABOVE:  Tamahere market is held at a Church, and this is part of the cemetery.  It's rather pretty.  I don't mind cemeteries at all, I find them very interesting places to wander through.  

Now?  Lunch, then read some more Coronation Street episodes.

Wow... it's bloody quiet today.  It's been quiet here too.  I've been reading Coro Street, dyeing my hair and generally having a lazy day.
I'm looking forward to this evening, I'm gunna watch the Royal Wedding.

I'm keen to see what Meghan's wedding dress looks like. It's the Chick in me of course.  I reckon 90% of the female population is interested in seeing 'THE DRESS'.  lol

Am I wrong?  Maybe, but who cares?

I'm watching it.  I like Harry, he's cool.

And I might just end the day here, cos ... nothing else is happening here.

Friday, May 18, 2018


Well... I've had several requests for the Seed Loaf that I made yesterday, so here it is:

Super Seed Bread


  • 1 Cup of Ground Almonds (120g)
  • 3/4 Cup of Sunflower Seeds (110g)
  • 3/4 Cup of Pumpkin Seeds (110g)
  • 1/2 Cup of Sesame Seeds (75g)
  • 1/4 Cup of Chia Seeds
  • Pinch of Coarse Salt
  • 75ml of Almond Milk
  • 5 Eggs
Bread doesn’t get any easier than this. It’s also easy on the tummy as it’s grain free and it’s a great low carb option that’s high in protein. It’s my go-to at the moment, easy enough that you can make a fresh loaf at the last minute and yummy whether you’re after sweet or savoury. It’s incredible with scrambled eggs or creamy avocado and pretty irresistible slathered in almond butter. You can use whatever seeds you have to hand, but stick with the total amounts stated to avoid any mishaps!
Preheat the oven to 180’C.
Combine all of the dry ingredients in a large bowl and mix well.
In another bowl, whisk the eggs and then stir in the almond milk. Gradually pour the egg mixture into the dry ingredients, while stirring.
Grease or line your bread tin (1lb tin). Pour the mixture into the tin and bake t 180’C for about 40 minutes, or until a knife inserted into the middle comes out clean and it’s golden and crisp on top.
Let cool on a wire rack for 10 minutes before serving.
It has a distinct flavor, you are either going to love it or hate it.  Stew really liked it, Griffin hated it... I like it, but not on it's own.
I'm relieved it's Friday.  I'm not enjoying my own company right now.  It gives me too much time to think, mull shit over in my head.
And let me assure you, there's plenty to mull over right now!  Seriously, I could write a bloody book about my dysfunctional family.
Sometimes I just wish I could fly away and never have to deal with any of them again.
I'm talking about EXTENDED FAMILY in this instance, not immediate family.  Breathe easy Stew!  lol
So I don't know what I will be doing today.  No idea at all.
Trying not to mull?  Maybe do some sewing?  Housework... well that's a no brainer.
Right, I will go and start the day.

Feeling a bit shaky this morning.   Waiting to see if I have a Hypo... sure feels like I could be heading into one?  Got me trusty sweets on hand if I do, so don't worry.

CORONATION STREET:  Here in New Zealand we are about 18 months behind Britain.  So TVNZ, in their infinite wisdom, have decided that next month they are going to JUMP us ahead 18 months, so we are up to date with what's current in Britain!

Oh, they are going to do a 2 hour 'Special', to highlight all that we will MISS, and so we are not left wondering what the fuck is going on!

Nice one.  I'm not a fan of this idea at all.
WE CAN watch the episodes we miss, all 18 months of them, which will be on at some random time during the day, if we want, while still watching the new, current episodes at night apparently.

Stuff that.  I don't watch daytime TV at all, except when I sit down for lunch.

SO... I am now going to dedicate an hour or two a day to read all the episodes TVNZ is going to skip!  I reckon come June 10th when they start broadcasting the 'up to date' episodes, I will have caught up by reading it all.

So, today I start.  I hope to get through a month's worth today. 

Today has been shit.  I'm depressed.  Family issue just got to me, I tossed and turned half the night, then today?  Moped. Felt yuk.  No motivation to do a bloody thing.  So I didn't.

Total waste of a day. Wish I didn't let shit get to me so much. But it does.  I hate discord, feeling like everything is out of sync.  

I have not even planned any dinner, just told the family it's left overs from the fridge.  We do have plenty in there, so I'm not even feeling guilty.  Waste not, want not and all that.

As far as I'm concerned, today is done.  Coronation Street is on later and that is all I have to look forward to, before going to bed.

Thursday, May 17, 2018


You would expect something that is brand spanking new to work eh?

Not so.  When I got this pricky thing yesterday it didn't work for me, so I took it back to the chemist and they checked it, and got it going.

It worked yesterday in the morning and at lunchtime, but last night?  Nope.

I have to psych myself up to use it, but last night I tried four times to stab my thumb and it simply did not work.  Even Stew tried it, and couldn't get it to prick him enough to draw blood.  In the end I had to use his to do my reading.  Which was perfect btw.

So this morning I'm taking the damn thing back AGAIN.  I hope they just give me a new one instead of changing the lancet and saying it's fine. It's NOT fine.

I really don't need this sort of stress!  I'm preoccupied enough over all this shit as it is!
My damn days revolve around what to eat, when to eat, when to take the damn pills, when to stab myself!  *sigh*

I really want my days to become 'normal' again.  You know, just flow. No stress.  Get to a happy place with the eating and not have to worry about it all the time.

After yesterday's Hypo, Stew bought these for me:

ABOVE:  These will help quickly if I ever get another Hypo!  

Now, today?  Well after getting that damn pricky thing sorted in town, I will come home and get some housework done.
After that... not sure.  Certainly don't need to do any sewing right now.   But then again, I've been asked to make another Christmas Runner, so I could make a start on that I suppose?

We will see.


Well... that stupid bloody pricky thing worked this morning. Grrrrr.
So, it stays till it doesn't work again I suppose.

My reading first thing this morning was EXCELLENT!  6.8 !  That is perfectly normal.
I only took half a Gliclazide tablet today, so am now waiting to see if I have a Hypo or not.
I hope not, they are not nice at all.

ABOVE:  Today's dinner will be Beef/Mushroom and tomato stew, done in the crock pot.  I'm thinking it will be rather delicious. 
I might just make an almond flour loaf for Stew and I to have with it, instead of veges.
OMG I am rather sick of veges right now!

Yaaa!  I got to lunchtime without having a Hypo!  That means halving that tablet worked.
Now to hold it there for a week and maybe go up to a whole one... but only if I need to.  I should know in a week by looking at my numbers.

I've just been to the supermarket. I wanted to get a few seeds for a loaf for Stew and I.  I will be making it shortly.

ABOVE:  Today I felt like a proper wife!  I baked.  It felt good.  The loaf looks good, and I'm sure it will taste just fine with our stew.
I love a crunchy/textured type of 'bread'.
I will tell you what Stew thinks of it... later.

Apart from the baking this afternoon, I have done nothing else!  Just a chillaxing afternoon.  Got no energy!

Dinner was really lovely.  Stew liked the loaf.
I will post the recipe tomorrow.

Time to sign off, I've got a thumping headache.  Bloody stress.

Wednesday, May 16, 2018


Today is my first day on Gliclazide, so hopefully I have no side effects!
Though the most likely side effects are hot flushes, dizziness and fatigue... and come on!  I already have all of those.

But there is one I do have to watch out for, and that is having a 'hypo'.  I doubt I've ever had one of those!  A 'hypo' is when your blood sugar level drops too low.  So that's why I have to take a prick test morning and night for the next month, to keep an eye on how my body adjusts to the Gliclazide.

I am going to sort out a diary this morning, one that I can record my readings in and also any reactions to certain foods.

I want to do a before and after reading for certain foods, like bananas!   The last time I had a banana my sugar levels went really high!  So, pretty sure I can't eat them without having to counterbalance them with more medication.  Probably not worth even bothering eating one, which is a shame as a nice, not quite ripe banana is one of my favourite fruits.

But, it's going to be interesting, not fun cos I still have to prick myself, but good to see what foods make my levels go up!

At cards last night, our hostess gave me a slice of a loaf she made out of a Ketogenic cook book.  It had lots of seeds and nuts in it, and almond flour and eggs.  Don't know what else, but I'm going to make it and use it instead of the Burgen bread for my breakfast.  It was really nice with peanut butter!  lol

So what am I getting up to today?  I think I will try going for a short walk.  I need to build up my fitness again.  The longer I put it off the harder it's going to be.  I don't think I'm up to walking with the FBG's yet, most walks are between 5 to 6 kms.  Just know I can't do that yet.

And of course, there's the utterly riveting housework to do.  Don't envy me now will ya?

Right, I'm going to go do that pesky blood test, pricky thing, then have breakfast.


11 am:  And a good start to the day!
My pre-breakfast reading was 7.5, so perfectly 'normal'.  
After breakfast I went into town and got a column book to do my recording in, then down to Mitre 10 where I got a couple more pavers for down the side of the house and a length of garden hose and attachments so I can extend the length of our existing garden hose.

Not that we actually need to use the hose right now!  It's been pretty wet the past few days, and today looks to be no exception.

I have decided to book myself onto a FBG walk this evening, as it's being led by a lady I know well, and she does not go fast at all.  Perfect for me right now.  If I find it's too far I will just turn around and go back to my car early.
I'd rather do that than go walkies on my own, it's so BORING and depressing.  

WELL! That was unexpected.

I just had my first HYPOGLYCEMIC episode. 

I came over all hot and thought it was just a hot flush, but nope.  Then I started shaking and felt all dizzy and weak... so I took my blood reading, it was 3.5.  Clearly too low for me!

So I had something to eat and am now waiting to feel better.  Maybe I will only take half a Gliclazide tomorrow morning!  

Well thankfully it didn't take too long to start feeling better.
I will certainly only be taking half a pill tomorrow morning.  It's obviously going to take a few days to get the dosage right for me, but that's OK.

Not sure if tonight's walk is going ahead, we are down on numbers and are not 'allowed' to proceed without the right number of walkers.  Such a pain.  Now that I've made up my mind to walk, I want to do it!

Well... at the 11th hour, the walk has been confirmed as a goer.  Talk about frustrating, not knowing till 35 minutes before hand.  Grrrrr.   I won't be putting my name down for any more, unless they already have the numbers that's for sure!

Well...the walk went well.  One of our walkers didn't turn up, so I'm not sure if it will be recorded as an 'official' FBG walk or not.  I will be a bit cross if it's not. 
Though, I was really pleased to actually get a walk under my belt!  I felt good during and after, so that was good after this morning's hypo.

Coronation Street is on shortly, so I will be signing off for the night.

Tuesday, May 15, 2018


Everyone is leaving me bright and early today!

Stew is off to Rotorua for his usual Tuesday,  checking in with staff there.

And Brylee and Griffin are off to Auckland on a school Drama trip.

So, by the time I get out of bed they will all be gone!

Nice.  It will be quiet!

I'm off to see my Doctor first thing this morning.  Hoping she can help me with the horrible side effects of taking so much more Metformin?  I also want my own testing kit, I've been using Stew's.

After that, I have to pick up Stewy's prescription (putting it on here so I don't forget!) lol.

Then I'm coming home to get stuck into some cleaning/tidying up.  That sorta shit never ends. *sigh*

One of our pups is STILL piddling inside.  It's totally doing my head in.
So, I'm going to bring them inside individually till I can figure out which one it is.  Then I can try and sort it out somehow.  (90% sure it's Denim)

It's so bloody annoying! They are almost 9 months old!  This should not be a problem anymore.  Grrrrr.

Right, that's about it for now.  I will try and make the rest of the day's blog more interesting with some photos ... later.  Photos of what?  Dunno yet!  lol


Oh here's something I totally forgot to show you on Sunday!

Right across the road from where my stall was, two women arrived in their car, ready to unload their stuff and set up their stall.

Now as stall holders, we are supposed to park, unload and then immediately MOVE our vehicles so potential customers can park and browse the market stalls right?

So back to the start. These two women arrive and park their car... only NOT like normal, decent, considerate people, NOPE.  This is where they parked:

ABOVE:  Can you see it?  They parked RIGHT OVER THE PEDESTRIAN CROSSING!  And on the wrong side of the road, facing the wrong way!!!  Totally blocking anyone from getting on or exiting the crossing unless they walked around their car!
To add insult to injury, the stupid bitches unpacked their car and then proceeded to set up their stall (arrow points at their stall), and left their car there for almost an entire hour!  It beggared belief!

There were a number of people who literally stood in front of their car and were like, WHAT THE HELL?, before walking around it to cross the road ON the crossing.  

Where was a police officer when ya needed one?  Sadly, nowhere.

So, that was 'interesting' to say the least.  

....  onward.

Bloody hell!  My Dr appointment was at 10 am.  Finally got to see her at almost 11 am.
It was absolutely pouring down, like torrential, when I arrived at the Drs... so got in there all wet too.  Yuk.

So, my lovely, adorable Dr tried to drag me off to the nurses station to jab me with insulin!  "Just to see how much it DOESN'T HURT Chris".
Yeah NAH, that was NOT going to happen.

We had a very lively 'discussion' about it, and in the end she conceded it wasn't going to happen.

So, she's changed my medication, for a MONTH'S TRIAL... to see if my blood sugar levels can come down and be under control with the new regime.

ABOVE:  See that!  There is another medication I can take!  I'm to take that one in the morning, and Metformin at night.  

ABOVE: And I have to test my blood every morning and night for a month, then go back to see her with the results.
PRAYING for good results, or I WILL have to go on insulin injections!

God help me if that happens.  I will be a blithering mess every day!  

I am feeling confident I WILL have good results in the next month.  100% confident.  I can't think any other way right now.  The alternative is too scary.

It's now after 1 pm and I need lunch.  I'm bloody starving.  And I need to read up on how to do the blood testing MYSELF, and not rely on Stew to do it for me.  Eeeek.

Well.. it took me FIVE thumb pricks before I had figured out how to make the gadget do a reading!  But I think I've got it now.

Fed the family Chicken steaks, potatoes and cauliflower and broccoli with cheese sauce for dinner tonight.

Then I buggered off and went to cards with me girlfriends!  Such fun.  I think we all enjoy it tremendously.  Time out, lots of laughs.

Home now and going to sign off for the day.

Monday, May 14, 2018


Today my Mum turns 81, a grand age.  She's had some trouble with her back and hip lately, but luckily that's now behind her after having a medical procedure done last week.
Modern medical advances are amazing!

So happy she gets to enjoy doing what she loves again.  SHOPPING!  GARDENING! Moving around without pain.

I'm going to Patchwork today.  First time in months, and only the 2nd time this year.  I'm only going as a few of the ladies have seen me recently and asked me to come back. So I will go and see how it is, how it feels to be there?

Once I get home again, I'm going to catch up on some housework... it's been a bit neglected over the past week or so.

And that's about all I have for now... catch you later.


Finally starting to feel a bit better in the mornings!
As long as I have something to eat.
Hmmm.  Not finding that too difficult, just having an egg or slice of Burgen bread (whole grain) with some vegemite and cream cheese or peanut butter!  YUM.

Since we started this new 'diet', Stew has lost between 3-4 kilos!  He's looking good for it too.

I'm getting tempted to step on the scales myself now.  As I am going to see my own Dr tomorrow, maybe I will get weighed there?

Trying to remember though:

AND.... it must NOT dictate how my day goes, or how I feel about myself!  Far too often I've let the number on the scale ruin my day!  I don't want that to happen again, and again.

12.33 pm:  Home from patchwork, just had my lunch.  Salad and a couple of breakfast sausages.  

Patchwork.  Meh.  Nothings really changed.  A couple of ladies were chatty, the rest?  Not at all. I stayed for almost 2 hours then left.  Maybe I will feel a part of the group in 10-20 years?  By then half the group will have passed on!
Or, we will have left Cambridge?  Who knows with us.

Once I've relaxed for a little while I will get some housework done I suppose.  Just a normal day here!

Dinner tonight was pork steaks, wedges and veges.  With Gravy, cos Brylee could live on gravy.  *smiles*

Now... just chillin out watching TV, not doing any sewing for a while!   Got quite enough stock.