Wednesday, September 30, 2015


Feel the need to use pictures.

I put my hands in the air... and say I DO CARE.
But... because there is obviously nothing I can do right now... I quit.  I just don't have the emotional strength right now for battle.

FAMILY should always come first, and that is what I have always tried to do.  But not to our detriment any more, that is why I quit ... for now. 

OH and a leopard MIGHT SAY they want to change their spots, but I know our leopard too well to believe it.  

Today?  Quiet contemplation?  Like HELL.
I might just take the kids to the movies... them, not me.  I don't think my stomach could stand or resist the smell of fresh popcorn, ice creams and lollies!

I shall walk around the mall on me pat malone I suppose.
Or I could go look at fabric?  Now that's an idea!


Well it looks like the kids will be at the movies at lunchtime ... so I can wander around Sylvia Park for a couple of hours on my own.  Nice.

I'm sure that will do my mood some good.

Sitting in a mall... surrounded by people, never felt so alone.

Mind is going around in circles. Only good thing on my mind?

I can't wait for the latest gullible sucker to get shat on. Time is on my side... and insider knowledge.

3.12 pm:  home again.  The kids loved the movie they saw, glad they had a nice time.
Loaded them up with lollies, ice creams and drinks so they were happy.

I'm happy to be home ... can put me feet up in comfort for a while.  Then it will be time to get dinner sorted for Stew and the kids.  He will be late home as he's in Hamilton.

Gives me time to get something out of the freezer!

Heard this song while out today, fell in love with it:

End of Day:  well a long afternoon spent doing bugger all!
Which I liked.  Stew got home from Hamilton safely, just in time for dinner.  I timed that right!
Steps for the last few days have been up around 7-8,000 so doing well there.  Shakes are going well too, I actually like them!
nite nite


  1. Big sigh. Sometimes you just have to step away to recharge, refocus and regain your strength... like they say in the airplane videos-- "Put your oxygen mask on before helping others."
    xoxo jj

  2. I agree with Joanna, above. You have to take care of yourself first.
    It is full time for you to have some peace in your life.

  3. Taje care of yourself Chris. Enjoy the walk and clear your mind.

  4. I agree with the others - take care of yourself - others have to take responsibilities for the decisions they make and live with the consequences - it's called life. You can care all you like, but at the end of the day it is there life.

  5. Take care. Enjoy your walk in the mall.

  6. That's a great song

  7. Love that song too.

  8. Take care, hope things get sorted out soon.

  9. I like mall sitting and absorbing the sounds and peoples behaviour and watching reactions. I have been known to fall asleep at the mall too! weird I know. It always saddens me when reading your down in the dumps....


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