HEEE HEE HE, HAPPIER TODAY

Okky dokkey, I am feeling a teeny bit better today, at least I don't feel like ripping someone's head off and shoving it up their B*M! I have woken with a friggin headache, but can work around that! My tummy is feeling much better, so that's great.

My littlies must know me so well, I swear yesterday they hardly came near me! AND I didn't even threaten to throttle them! I didn't !

Today, it's raining ... so perfect for a walk.... but maybe not right now... I'm gunna wait for the headache to go first. Might just do some housework this morning instead.. don't ya just envy me??? Well, all you buggers who go to work anyway!




Ahhhh, quiet children... gotta love em! Not that they are very good at building with Lego yet, but they do enjoy it and it keeps them QUIET.... and that has got to be worth it. I think, when I think of kids and why they drive me nuts, it's got to be the darn noise they make! I do love my kids (and others too), but find I am getting less and less tolerant of the constant noise they make! Is that an age thing??? DON'T ANSWER THAT unless you are gunna be NICE ! ha ha ha.









We went for a walk along the river with Izzy, it was bloody cold! so when we got home again we jumped into the sauna! Both of these pictures were cute, so they both got put up!

These two kids are complete opposites....he's a little budda and she's just tiny.... I don't know who to worry about the most... him who eats too much and isn't very fit or her.... who we have literally had to force feed for years, but who is quite fit.
I try not to say anthing about their weights cos it can lead to so many problems later on in life.... for now they are OK.

Look what happens with too much time on your hands... ya end up writing a novel.... better go get lunch sorted out and get off this darn computer!

4.45pm... I can hardly think.... my doctor just rang with my Smear Results... not good... have to have a coloscopy(sp?) and biopsy... FUCK FUCK FUCK.... serve me right for having me head in the sand for 17 friggin years....I'm now officially SCARED SHITLESS....

I think I shall go now.... nite nite.

WHOOOOPS !

Hmmmm, forgot to get on here... was busy .... got RPM at 9.30 this morning... and I do not feel like going... got TOM AGAIN... and feel like crap.

Must go take me Acid pills to stop the flooding...aaaah, that's better.. I moved, and my legs are not happy with me! Sore and stiff... so I suppose I had better move my butt and go to the gym!

I am feeling really FAT today, so I'm grumpy as hell... my knickers are tight.... so not happy at all. Actually, don't come near me today, I AM PISSED AS... at myself of course... too much food over the past few days... I think I shall have NOTHING today to de-tox. later...

Went to the gym, did my full body weight workout, added 5kgs to all the leg ones, then did the hour long RPM (spin cycle class), and now I am truly exhausted! Am going to have a nice sauna at home before I do anything else... and I am feeling a bit better... funny how getting good and tired can make ya feel a bit better!

*** Jules, I am going through "That time of life", where ya just never know when "it" is gunna arrive, or not arrive...such a pain! And believe it or not, abstaining from food for 24 hours usually makes me feel 100% better too! Obviously I don't do it very often, as I do know it's not usually a good thing, but for me it revitalises my batteries! Weird, but true.

ALL RIGHT ALREADY! Before too many more of you buggers come crawling outta the woodwork to tell me off about not eating today.... I have right this minute put a WW meal in the microwave and I will eat it.. all 4 points of it.. and I will have another one at Dinnertime... ok?

Chicken Hot Pot.... oh my .... where has this little bugger been hiding all my life? SOOOOO yum, mashed potatoe on top..... oooooooooo! I'm in loooove ....

Have had a quiet afternoon, still feel like shit, in actual fact me tummy is feeling worse! Oh well, shit happens. Have had lamb chop, potatoe and peas for dinner..... a bit greasy.... not so nice. What's on the telly tonight? Cos I'm gunna curl up and not move again till bedtime..... ahhh bliss. nite nite

I'M A TARDY TART...

There is a bonus to school holidays afterall.... I get to sleep in ! Oh man, I so did not want to get up this morning, my triceps are really sore... as are my shoulders and the back of my thighs.... so... I'm going to the gym soon to do it all again! hee he

But first.... I suppose I had better feed the kids, the dog, get Mike outta bed so he can watch the kids.... ya know, all the usual Mummy type shit that has to be done first... ah the joys of parenthood. later...

Workout done.... now I have to beatle into town and pay some bills, get some lunch maybe, let the kids have a play at McDonalds I suppose...

Oh Lynn, do ya really think I have "Barbie Legs" ! I don't know if I should be happy about that, or really sad... I mean, the shape is kinda OK, but I just don't know about the holes at the hip mate! LMFAO !!! *BIG LAUGH*

Lunch in town was ... chinese.... but only a teeny tiny helping... now we are home again and Stew's taken the afternoon off to finish off Izzy's new area... I just jigsawed the exit hole out to her new grassed area.. what a job! It was 7 ply... quite hard to get through, but I'm one of those people who are bloody minded and will persist till it's done! So, nearly time for another photo... later....

Dog Run.... DONE.....

Now we are all set up for when it's time for Izzy to have puppies too... but that is about a year away yet...but no time like the present to get it all set up!

I just got home from watching my "baby" Mike play indoor Netball, I had never watched him before and it was neat! He's a fantastic player, but then, I AM biased! But he is , he is! LOL

Now for dinner... we are buying ??? Friggin burgers! WAs nice though... better go to the gym tomorrow, at the moment that is all that's keeping me from getting even heavier!

Off for a sauna now, then bed. nite nite Oh , almost forgot, my legs DO NOT RESEMBLE BARBIE'S AT ALL, for a start they are fatter and hairier.. shall give them a shave shortly, but alas, that will still not make em look like Barbie's. Haaaa ha ha.

LOVELY MONDAY

Plan for today: Gym at 8am, Weight Class at 9am, home ....help Stew build fence to make run for Izzy.... fold the bloody washing ... and whatever else comes along.
Had planned on going to Wellington but there's too much to be done around here... maybe next weekend. later...

Just back from gym, had an awesome workout, Rob - personal trainer - upped my weights again... eeewww that was hard! He also weighed me (87.5) that will serve me right for eating friggin Easter Eggs! Am now home and getting ready to go and get some wood to build fence etc....

WOW, havn't I been quiet today? Been busy helping the man... we are enclosing our deck, and putting a new fence out the back so Izzy in confined to a smaller grassed area and the deck only, this is so we have SOME lawn that is "clean" for the kids to play on.... and there are no more friggin holes everywhere! She doesn't dig many .... yet!

The far end of the deck used to be our BBQ area, but now it's Izzy's too... and we are going to cut a hole in the wall so she can go out to her own backyard area for piddles etc. And it will be only "her" grassed area, so the rest of the grassed area is nice and clean for everyone else. Cool !

I have eaten another 2 little eggs..... why am I confessing? Derrrr.... and my arms and legs are rather sore now.... I will be going on the exercycle tonight to work off the eggs don't worry. onward...

6.30 pm, and we have had to call it quits for the day... it's too dark and the mozzies have eaten our legs something rotten! Almost got it all done, probably another hour or so's work over the next couple of nights will see it done... yipee! Then I can start filling in the holes in the lawn, re-grass, fix me gardens.... it's all good.

Dinner tonight is left over Nachos, then I shall be getting some exercise...or maybe not! Feeling stuffed actually and I think I shall be going to bed!

Wanted to watch Legally Blonde 2, but it is just silly! nite nite

NO NAMES & ATTIC CLEANING DAY

FIRST AND FOREMOST ... Thank you a million trillion times for all your lovely kind comments in answer to my question! I am now reassured 100% that I am ok!

As for who made the comment I was "a bit rude", she is actually a really really LOVELY girl, a fantastic inspirational blogger, and I would never ever think of naming her, as I am sure she had no idea how much her comment would hurt my feelings...she just does not "get" my sense of humour/personality obviously. And that is ok, cos it takes all sorts to make this world go round, it would be bloody boring if we were all the same!

I am,at the moment, sitting up in bed with my laptop, a hot latte, and me piddle pills....which my darling Stew got for me...... after I "ordered" him otta bed to do my bidding! hee hee - how spoilt am I ? After I can drag me butt otta bed I'm going to make a concentrated effort today to get the attic sorted out AGAIN. Whenever something new is put in there it just gets thrown in from the door, hence it ends up a bloody mess again.
Today I am going to catalogue what is in there, cos I have no idea! What else? *Shrugging shoulders*, no idea yet!

Tomorrow we are going on a wee road trip, Palmerston North - Masterton - Carterton?- down to Wellington - back up via Levin... should be fun. later...


Just when you think your teenagers really are bloody shits... they turn up with the biggest bag of Easter Eggs for everyone, and they have even gone to the trouble to find Mummy ones that are low in fat.... awwww! What was I supposed to do, throw 'em back at them? Noooooo, I ate them! I worked it out that they were worth 12 points, so shall be doing my best to work them off today... I PROMISE!

NEWS FLASH : seems my body does not like chocolate! It has had an amazing LAXATIVE effect..... heee heee he. oOOO ERRRRR, was that too much information? *BIG SMILE*

Well, the attic tidy up didn't take as much time as we expected, so have been having a rather lazy day.. Stew is out mowing the lawns right now, and I've been doing nothing! Have to pull finger soon and start preparing dinner, My Niece has requested Nachos for dinner, seems her sister in Aussy just does not make it like me! I don't follow any recipe, I just chuck all the ingredients together, a shake of this, shake of that kinda....if anyone asked me to write it down I'd be lost! How much is a shake? lol

Change of plans for tomorrow, we have decided to do yard work instead... mutual decision....so that should fun eh? LOL

Been a quiet day, everyone must be having a wonderful day..cos It's been quiet here in blogland!

Here is a picture of Steve and Lisa's cat, it hates me..... the feeling is mutual! I am not a cat lover at all .... sorry to all you cat lovers out there. His name is Napoleon, and he's giving me the bum's rush me thinks! In truth, he's trying to get away from me, Lisa is holding him too close to me and he knows it!

Made my "famous" nachos for dinner, and one thing I have noticed... I can only eat about half what I used to! This is good! Did a very fast 40 minutes on the exercycle this afternoon, so havn't been totally lazy..... just watched "Legally Blonde" on tv, loved it! That's me for the day... nite nite.

JUST CANT DO IT....

My mind is kinda in a fuzz.... it has been said (by a fellow blogger), that my comments on other's blogs can be "a bit rude", oh hell ! REALLY???

So, I know it's always quiet over the weekend, but if you are out there, and I have ever put a comment on your blog.... can you please, please tell me...... have I offended you? Cos if I have I NEVER intended to! Honestly, I am a very straight shooting, to the point, black and white kinda person.... I tend to tell it like it is... no sugar coating......if that is offensive, I will TRY to change!

THEN AGAIN..... NAHHHH....I JUST CAN'T DO IT !!! I am who I am, and if I offend you, don't read my blog, tell me if you don't want me to comment on your blog, ....I can take offence and wipe you off my Favourites list !!! I am a woman, who can take offence at the slightest thing.... just like everyone else !

Ok, for today.... I'm walking into town to meet up with WW buddies for morning tea, think I'll have......something nice! later..

10.30 am.... and I had something Niiiiiiice ! It was my breakfast/lunch combined, so I DID NOT feel guilty! I even ate the *3* ! little marshmellows that came with the drink.... ha ha.

It was lovely walking into town, cloudy and not too hot, but on the way home it was sooo hot I rang Stew and he picked me up half way home.. so in all I walked for around 60 minutes.... so that was good.

If you have commented on my question, I thank you from the bottom of my heart, I am feeling decidely better about this already!

Talk about a lazy day.... we watched the rugby, Yaaa the Chiefs won! Now we are watching "The Sixth Sense"... just love this movie..... had frankfurters on buns with cheese for dinner... yummmmm.

Am getting a real kick out of how many of you have taken the time to reassure me I'm not NASTY or RUDE... thank god for that! It is a good day!

What a neat way to end the day.... Brylee's FIRST tooth came out, it had been just hanging in there for days... so I gave it a good pull and HEY PRESTO... one tooth waiting for the Tooth Fairy..... soooo cute! nite nite.

NEW GOAL, NEW REWARDS, CLIMBING TO LIGHTHOUSE!

I have put up my new Goals and Rewards..... and for the first time this year... the awful truth,I have gained 5 kilos since I started this blog..... no one's fault but my own.... I AM A PIG...It's official !
Today is another day, and I am going to be totally accountable to myself.... and those friggin numbers are going to come down if it kills me! It may take a while, it may not be easy, but it will happen.

It's a gorgeous day and we are off to Castlepoint, on the east coast, for a picnic and play, and so I can climb up to the Lighthouse again... the last time I did that (4 years ago) by the time I got to the top I collapsed and thought I was having a heart attack ! NOT a good feeling I can assure you.... so today I am going to be doing it again, only this time I am heaps lighter and heaps fitter... I can't wait!

It's Easter, I hope everyone is out and about, being busy and happy, and not sitting in front of their computer... cos I'm outta here for the day ! later...








Look at this !!! Stew got a ticket... doing 113 in a 100 zone, and the traffic officer was such a spunk! He did think it was funny when I took the photo, but gave me a huge smile! And this did not ruin our day, cos it was fair enough.... we got it on the way to Castlepoint..... the day was awesome, we had a really really fantastic time!



Below, a series of phots of Castlepoint and it's lighthouse, it is a amazingly beautiful area, with an ocean beach, the lighthouse, and an inner harbour...... we visited two lots of freinds there, one was Anne, a fellow WW and blogger, who has a really lovely home on the hill overlooking the whole spectacular view of bay, lighthouse and harbour, and another group of friends with a permanent carvavan/awning etc at the motor camp, and they were only a few steps from the beach, so we yakked for hours while the kids played on the beach.

NOW... as for the walk up to the lighthouse... I felt like I could have RUN UP THAT HILL !!! Griffin asked me to "slow down Mummy" a couple of times !!! I felt amazing, I was sooooo chuffed with myself - I couldn't stop smiling..... once we got down again, I wished I could go back up, just cos I knew I could have ..... I wanted to run up it, I really did. ONE DAY...

We got home around 5pm, Brylee got out of the car and promptly threw up all over the path.. poor kid was car sick.... and our niece, Christina, was waiting at home for us.... now we are going to have Pizza for dinner..... might have some. I have had NO more easter eggs, this is good.

Only one thing left to say about today... TOO MUCH PIZZA. nite nite.

BETTER LATE... THAN NEVER!

Got up this morning,and.... no internet connection! Gawd, talk about feeling like me arms cut off!! So, upstairs I went to tweak the other two computers, pull out the connections and put them all back... still nothing.
So, I had to get Steve outta bed, he had gone to bed at 4am, so he wasn't too chuffed with me.... TOO BAD! He found the problem, a disconnected cable behing his computer.... wasn't Me! Ahhhhh, I'm BACK!

Ok, ok, I was only 'gone' for 2 hours, but it felt awful! How am I going to manage when we go on holiday to Australia for 2 weeks ! Internet Cafe's better be plentiful is all I can say.

Not walking with my gym buddy today, she's got to work.... so not sure what to do.... go to gym or vacum the house! decisions.....

been reading Blogs..... must STOP !!!
I have decided to break down my target loss into small chunks, and reward myself when I reach each step.... so for every 3 kgs I lose, I get a reward.... The only problem is I can't think of much to reward myself with! I have thought of Acrylic Nails, and a weekend away with just Stew.... then my mind is a blank! Any Ideas? Bearing in mind we ain't millionaires! I have lost NO weight since I started this blog, in fact I have gained..... I am struggling big time.....

Friggin !! The reward ideas are flooding in, and I'm jumping up and down with delight ! So many ideas, I shall have to reward myself every 2 kilos to fit them all in! I was so thrilled with some of the ideas, I went and vacumed the lounge/dining room with much gusto... keep them coming, the house will be spick and span really soon at this rate! *Clapping hands with glee*

How many points in a small green caterpillar ? Cos I'm bloody sure I just ate one with my coleslaw.... eeeeewwww, it DID NOT taste nice ! It would be PROTEIN eh? lol

Ok, must be no points in a caterpillar then! Cool.

Now, this afternoon, I'm sitting at my computer desk minding me own business and I hear someone come in the front door, I'm thinking it's Stew home for lunch.. then this female voice says "HI".... hmmmmm.... who the hell is that? I turn around and it's my niece, Chris, who lives in Melbourne! For once in my life I'm gobsmacked, no words come outta my mouth for a good 10 seconds (this is a LONG time), then "What the fuck are you doing here?" I say!

Seems she's taken a week off work and has popped home for a visit.... so lovely to see her! I nearly cried, I have missed her so much..... anyway, we are still having a great gass bag, catching up on all her news... she doesn't need to catch up on mine... she reads me blog every day! I will be taking some photos just as soon as my camera batteries are charged... OK Ash / Shelley ? lol

Look, I even fed her! Meatballs with Ham over noodles. Niiiice.

Righty ho, it's been a really neat day, thanks for all the reward suggestions! Am going to put up a new Goal/Reward thingee over the weekend.... until then, nite nite.

RPM... HERE I COME

Wow, I slept like a log, didn't even wake when Stew and the kids got up.....fan-bloody-tastic!

Looking forward to the RPM class this morning, blow away the cobwebs for sure..... then I'm going to drive Izzy into town and walk her around lots of people and places while she's not exhausted.... and hope like hell she doesn't go nuts. The last two days by the time we've gotten into town she's been too tired to worry about jumping on people or trying to lick them to death. Should be fun.

I've decided to go back to the Dr, my fluid retention is getting worse... I know all my blood tests came back "fine", so the Dr said I would "just have to live with it" .... well according to a few in the know, fluid retention can be a symptom of heart failure (FUCK that's LOVELY)... and I should have an ecocardiogram and heart function tests to rule that cause out too. So, I'm rather pissed that I have to go and pay again to ask him to do his job properly! More later....

The RPM class was awesome, I put in 110% and felt knackered at the end. Followed it up with a sauna, so that's at least a kilo of water gone.
TOM has arrived again, only 20 days since last one, such a pain.. but at least now I have those pills to stop me flooding.... yaaaa.
And... that explains the need/desire for chocolate yesterday eh!
Thanks for the comment JULES, I shall be bringing up your points with my Dr, though the blood tests I had a few weeks ago ruled out kidney failure, adrenal glands, insulin levels, liver function... so I don't know what else ... maybe the thyroid or heart? Oh well, I can only hope it's a food intolerance then!

OLD AGE !!! YOU CHEEKY LITTLE TROLLOPE MELLISA.... ha ha ha. I've had this problem since I was 30, 18 years now... I'll give you old age Mellisa, HUMPH! You are soooo lucky I can't just pop over the ditch and give you a cheeky slap, is all I can say. Thanks for that, it did make me laugh though.

Been to town with Mike (no dog, too wet) and we had a kebab for lunch, gawd that was soooo filling and yummy, no idea how many points, but it can't have been too bad.

I'm still laughing... I threaten to bitch slap people and they invite me over for a cuppa !! Mellisa, make it Diet Coke.....

I won the battle tonight, I have not had anything after Dinner, and now I'm going to have a sauna and go to bed.... nite nite!

PERFECT DAY FOR WALKING

I'm off walking with my gym buddy this morning, then who knows? I might pop into town and look for placemats, take Izzy into town and walk her around lots of people to get her more socialised... she jumps on people in excitement, and I want to try and stop her doing it by conditioning her to being around lots of people.

Griffin slept in this morning, but has woken in a shitty mood, doesn't want this or that for his breakfast.... and is now grizzling cos I ended up giving him cereal and apple ... and he's sure he didn't want that! Friggin kid drives me nuts! GRRRR

later...

Well, got to the gym and Janet soooo did not want to go walking, I tried to persuade her, but no... she just wanted a sauna... so we had a sauna.
Now I'm home, all hot and sweaty, and am going to walk into town with Izzy (the dog) again.... KEK... thanks for the laugh mate!

Had a neat walk with me dog, she was really good! Stew dropped us home again, and I've just had the most yumm lunch... coleslaw, brown rice and shrimps. Am freezing now, cooling down from my walk etc I suppose, and going to find a sweatshirt!

PIGS....
Below, my most precious pigs... I used to collect them.. hmmmm there's a story in there somewhere...subconscience working!

Most of these ones were given to me by my darling brother, Vern, who died in 1999, and two are from my Mum and another from my dear friend Frieda.... I have two boxes full of more pigs in the attic, am going to put them on Trademe.... I don't collect them anymore, not since my brother died.....

But I digress.... I WAS A PIG THIS AFTERNOON .... I ate *GULP* 4 FRIGGIN EASTER EGGS ! And I don't even like them that much, I have no idea why I did it, I feel bloody awful, and want to jump out the window, only all I would achieve doing that is flattening the hydrangeas! BUGGER DAMN AND BLAST.

A nice quiet evening ahead, no dramas, yummy dinner (casseroled chicken), Coronation Street (hee hee), maybe I'll get on the exercycle then have a sauna... then ahhhhhhh bed. BLISS. nite nite

BIG YAWN...

Griffin.... woke up at 5.20am, and THAT WAS IT! I could throttle him, he wanted a drink, then food, then his teddy's, and on and on and on.... Now we are starting the day ratty, gawd, I don't ever want to go back to infants and night feeds, early mornings etc!

T0DAY: Kids to school, gym, walk dog, housework, all the usual stuff...oh and I might pop over and see my WW Leader too, though technically she isn't my 'Leader' anymore cos I've left eh? But she is a good friend, so I need to sort things out with her, it is on my mind....

I went to the gym and did my 30 minute weight session with the trainer... such a nice guy! He's going to be weighing me every monday morning, starting next monday (after Easter, yikes!), so that I am accountable to someone else! I better pull finger this week eh?
Then.... I rode me trusty scooter (as yet un-named) over to my WW Leader's shop, and we had a lovely chat.... seems she HAS been very busy with end of financial year stuff too... she wasn't ignoring me (Honest!).... and all is good! Phew, that is a load off my mind. I think she will even try and join us for coffee on saturday's as well, so that is so good. I really value her friendship, she's a neat lady.







Now that I have my dining table back, I fluffed around with table settings (cos I could!), and came up with two similar, left or right one? I like the one on the left.... not that we are probably ever gunna sit down to a table like this, ha ha ha. But if we wanted to.....
Don't like the placemats... gunna go look for some White ones! Mad to have white placemats... but it will look soooo pretty!

Hmmmm, this is not a blog about how to dress ya table... more about what ya shouldn't eat off ya table.... I have been good! Eating only 3 meals a day, no snacking, felt FANTASTIC last night, cos I hadn't had any naughty food after dinner, and I had so much more energy at bedtime.....heeee heee he! I do believe eating too much at night makes you lethargic and sleepier... not doing that anymore.... promise!

Took Izzy for a long walk into town, it took 45 minutes, she was exhausted! Met up with Stew and we had lunch at a nice cafe on George Street, at table outside so Izzy could sit with us! Then Stew dropped us home again, Izzy would never have made it both ways, it was so hot. Then... I had a Nana Nap, was so tired! Mike picked up the kids from school, and now I'm trying to think what to do for dinner, I got out some chicken mince.... havn't used it before, so not sure what to do....might try rissoles! later..



NOW.. for all of you out there who have tried to chop up onions without getting stinging, crying eyes.... do I have the solution for you! Now, you may look like a bloody dork, but hey, your eyes don't hurt!!! I wear swimming goggles.... it works 100% ... no shit!







My only suggestion, don't forget to take them off if you have to answer the door! Done that, the guy looked at me as if I was mad! Hmmm, wonder why?






Ok, onward, must do some spuds next....


FUCK I'M A TWIT.... Today I have popped into my blog to update, and have seen NO COMMENTS for me... and I'm thinking.... boo hooo, no one likes me today..... then (JUST NOW) I realised I had the wrong e-mail address up on my screen (like my 2nd one).... DOH. I was so wrapt when I saw I actually had 10 waiting to be read... gunna do that right now... my mood has lifted I tell ya!


Well, the chicken rissoles were lovely.... mince, eggs, onions, carrot, pototoe, herbs, stock, breadcrumbs.... all combined and pan fried. Yummm yummm.
Sent Stew out for diet coke, have had 2 litres of friggin orange today already, was hanging out for something I actually like to drink.... so there! On that note, nite nite.

NICE DAY TO BE ...

It is a really lovely day out there, and I'm going to be busy doing friggin housework, and tidying up the dining room. Getting something to put me computer on today... and I need to get upstairs and tidy up the writing desk too...it has just had crap dumped on it for months and it's a mess.

Feeling positive about today, am hoping to overcome the end of day 'munchies' by keeping busy, and hoping my WW Leader gets back to me... if not I suppose I shall ring her.

Steve and Lisa are over their little tiff, thank goodness, so all is good there. Mike is joining a local rugby team, so he's happy too. He isn't doing too much job hunting, the little shit...

I missed out on a place in the RPM class today, so am just going to do my stuff around here, and maybe go for a workout later on today... we will see. Not too worried really.







BEFORE: The mess that was my dining room table / office !

AFTER: I have an office, and a dining room table that we can USE AGAIN ! I love being able to work at my computer, and be part of what's going on in the main living areas... so this is perfect cos I can even see the telly in the lounge... so cool.

Another view from the dining room, in the corner is the wee utility cupboard we got as well, a great place to put the flowers Stew bought me the other day...








I've had a thoroughly enjoyable day.... just love shopping, and getting the house and yard tidy is fantastic too... mucked around in the dining room this afternoon and got things just how I wanted them, neat.
Did I mention the shop where we got the office furniture wasn't even open today, but the owner let us in anyway! Such a lovely woman, she was frantically busy doing the end of year accounts in the shop, and took the time to help us load the van and all! Might just take her a wee "thank you" gift tomorrow.

Well, that's me for the day, so I'll say 'nite nite'.

By the way, No, I have not heard from my WW Leader/friend. Not sure if I will ring her or just go visit her tomorrow. Thinking about it.

WHAT TO DO NOW???

Hmmm, for the first time in 3 and a half years, I'm not racing around getting ready to go to Weight Watchers.... and I'm feeling weird... like.... what do I do now?
Still thinking of what to "replace" WW with, maybe a small informal group of friends who get together on a weekly basis to weigh and chat about our weeks' efforts? That one has been suggested by two lovely friends here, who also only go to WW once in a while... am scared actually, of having stopped going!

Scared of gaining again... scared of losing that contact with friends, like, were they only my friends on Saturday? I suppose I am going to find out eh? I textd my WW Leader, who's become a very good friend, to tell her I was giving up WW, and I havn't heard back from her... maybe she didn't get my text? Feeling let down.

I walked into town this morning, it took 45 minutes, met my WW buddy and we then walked to our usual coffee shop (another 20 minute walk) and were met by two other WW friends.. and we have decided to have an informal get together probably on a fortnightly basis, to weigh and yak... so we can support each other in the continued battle.
I also text'd my WW Leader again this morning, and will wait and see if she replies, if she doesn't, I shall ring her... cos her friendship is very important to me and I NEED TO KNOW why she hasn't replied... it is eating away at me! Maybe her phone ain't working? Usually she text's me a dozen times a week! Something ain't right there....

Stew and the kids are off over the ranges to Pahiatua, to watch a rugby game played by a team Mike is thinking of joining... so I'm off shopping!

We need another computer desk, for the dining room for me..... we already have TWO computer desks upstairs....but the boys use them, so I need one of my own! The two upstairs are mine too, but the boys want them! So, I'm outta here shopping...*BIG SMILE*

I have found a computer desk and bits that I quite like (in blue) and... a cute wee writing desk in recycled pine.... both would do fine... so am waiting till tomorrow when Stew can come look with me before I decide... pretty amazing for me actually, I am usually rip - shit and bust to get it RIGHT NOW! But I can't quite make up my mind, so another view will be good... can't wait till tomorrow now!

I got a quick text back from my WW Leader, she is going to ring me later.... waiting.....

Maybe she forgot? Feeling let down even more now. Am watching some idiot movie on the telly, might just go to bed.

Going to town tomorrow to decide on computer desk Vs. Writing Desk, till tomorrow... nite nite.

WOW !

Thanks for all the suggestions and support! I do believe I am getting much more support from 'Blogland' with the weight journey than Weight Watchers, too right! And as for what to drink: I'm going to alternate between the friggin orange flavoured soda water (sugar free) and diet coke, it isn't going to kill me to have some!

I know it is the artificial sweetners that are the evil part, but hey I don't smoke or drink, I avoid buses and big trucks on the road (like I look both ways before crossing eh?), so I reckon I'm allowed to take a risk and drink it.... as I said, you only live once!

For those of you who suggested 'Crystal Light'... what is it, I have never heard of it before... maybe we don't get it down here in New Zealand?
Today: kids to school, gym workout, walk the dog, housework.... and hopefully the Gasfitters will come and fix me stove? Waiting....

BLOODY HELL Jules ! Suppose I better go have a look at Phoenix Organics then !! Thank you soooo much for caring enough to comment FIVE times eh? lol



Boody hell again! I have got suggestions coming out me ears! Thanks so much! I am going to get on the net and check out the options, Phoenix Organics sounds good, don't know about importing Crystal Light, seems to be a lot of hassels involved, payments, inport fees, duty taxes etc. BUT thank you for the information. The wee dog is how I looked when I saw how many comments came in over the morning! LOL!


YES MELLISA, Diet Coke Rocks for sure, but drinking over 3 litres a day does not ! that's how much I USED to drink, and I don't want to go back to that much.... ever.

The Gasfitters arrived, dicked around, couldn't find the leak (There IS one), and are coming back later with their gas detector..... derrr, like shouldn't they have brought it in the first place??? Fuckwits. OH , BAD BAD LANGUAGE.

What da ya know, they came back with their thingee, and found a leak.... fixed it and and told me to send the $175 call out fee from the Gas Company to them.... too right I will !
Now I can cook on me stove again... yaaaa.

So I cooked.... lamb chops in mint sauce, fresh spuds and veges.. and I had too much and now feel sick. Twit. Am going to watch American Idol now... then may get on the exercycle, so that's me for another day... nite nite. THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR COMMENTS, I really appreciate it.

DECISION MADE...

It's not working any more.... so I have decided, after three and a half years, to leave Weight Watchers ...... I am not enjoying the meetings anymore, I have heard all the speil over and over again, I think I do know what I have to do by now without going to another meeting! I am over worrying about weigh in every week, and stressing out about it... then going and not weighing. I am not going to put myself under that stress anymore, and who knows, it may actually help me get back on track again, knowing I don't have that pressure?

I will definitly miss all the friends I have made there, though I am sure I will not actually "lose" them ... we can get together in other places instead.

So, what am I going to do instead? Still thinking about that one...

What else? I am SICK TO BLOODY DEATH of drinking orange flavoured water.... I HATE IT.... so I have been drinking some diet coke again... up to about 2 glasses a day... I do not want to get back to 3 litres a day though! I hate tea, coffee... any suggestions???
TODAY: I'm staying home and doing some badly needed housework.... should be just as good as a workout!

Decaff Diet Coke... has been suggested... any ideas/comments on this as a possible alternative ? Or is it still EVIL ..

Vacuming - done
Floors washed and polished - done
Read all available magazines - done

Waiting to hear back from the Gasfitters ... need my stove fixed... shame I can still cook using the microwaves, frying pan, BBQ etc... no excuses ... bugger.

I suppose switching to Diet Pepsi wouldn't be any better eh? lol

Not much else is happening here, did not hear from the Gasfitters, the shits.. am signing off for the day. nite nite.

DARE I HOPE FOR A NORMAL DAY

So many ups and downs in the past few days, I am hoping for a nice normal day today.... no dramas, no nerves eating away at me... just kids to school, RPM at the Gym, maybe lunch in town with Stew? I hope so...

Lisa is not here at the mo, she's "housesitting" for her grandparents....? Don't know what's the haps really, but as long as Steve is ok, and he seems to be, I'm keeping out of it.

Now, I must get Mike out of bed, he's got to find himself a job for the next 10 months..... stuffed if I'm gunna watch him sleep all day!

Dragged me sorry butt down to the gym..... soooo didn't feel like going, but once the class started I got into in and ended up enjoying it, now I'm darn tired!
Got home to find a comment (yeah thanks Lee-anne) saying I was having too many normal days...

Guess What? I love being "normal" and having "normal" days, cos it means I am just like everyone else, not a hugely overweight, reclusive, suicidal person who is miserable day in day out. My life is busy, full of friggin annoying kids (who I love), endless housework, and it IS good.

Sometimes things just don't get done, like the vacuming, cos I want to enjoy my life a bit now, like going to the gym, so if that makes me selfish, TOO BLOODY BAD! *Shrugging shoulders*

I have been raising kids for 28 years now, and I still have two littlies, but the difference now is that I know I have to make time for myself. You only live once!
Lee-Anne, thanks for giving me some fodder for "something" to yak about today, it has been a very boring day! Normal even!!! ha haha.
Hmmmm, come to think of it, I don't think I like boring days, too much time to wander around looking for something to eat.... why oh why does my mind always think of food when I am bored?! Something I still have to work on constantly.

Someone doesn't like me! I have been smelling gas on and off for a few months in my kitchen/dining room... havn't been too worrried thinking it was just residual smell from the gas oven, but today it was so strong I had to ring the Gas Company, who declared it an 'EMERGENCY' and sent a chap out immmediately ... who found the new stove was leaking gas. As a consequence we have no stove (oh yaaa, I can't cook)! What a disaster.... NOT ! Now I have to get the Gas Fitters out who installed the stove to fix it, hope they pay the $175 call out fee I'm gunna be charged by the Gas Company ! so, not so boring day afterall... ha ha ha.

Sooo tired now, just did the grocery shopping... Over $740 later.... So don't know what it all goes on! Anyway, that's the end of another day. nite nite.

SMEAR....

TUMMY TUCK NEXT POST DOWN..

Woke up this morning with feeling of impending doom/disaster... felt dreadful and paced around the house till Stew came home to take me for my smear test...needed him to hold me hand.
Arrived, met nurse, she was lovely, and straight into it..... and to my neverending relief she found my cervix immediately (I'm not a freak afterall) !! and like 2 minutes tops and it was over!!! THANK GOD.
Left there with a huge smile on my face! Then went walking with my gym buddy, so am feeling on top of the world right now.

Today I got all upset cos my friggin engaged teenagers had a tiff, and it looked like it was all over .... Lisa packed a bag and left... 4 hours later they are back on..... I wish they would make up their bloody minds! They don't seem to realise that their ups and downs affect everyone else around them....

Mike has finally made some decisions about what he's doing with his life... he left school last week, he has already passed NCEA level 3 and can go to University... he's decided to work the rest of this year and then go to Auckland University to do a 4 year Physiotherapy Degree. So at least he's finally made up his mind! Oh my god, does this mean I will finally have a spare bedroom next year!!! The mind boggles, lol.

BACK TO NORMALACY....

Today, kids to school then off to the gym, I have not done much exercise at all in the last 3 days and feel really sluggish.

Then, when I get home again.... I will post the photos of my trip, feet and all.... bet ya can't wait ! lol




Hamilton Lake, with Waikato Hospital in the background.. I love this view. I had Mike in this Hospital 17 years ago!

Here's one bird brave enough to put it's feet in the Hamilton Lake, cos I wasn't! It is filthy!

The Waikato River, with the M V Waipa Delta in the background, this paddle boat does Lunch/Dinner cruises up and down the river... I have been on it twice, it is very nice, if a bit boring!

This reminded me why I don't miss the Waikato! Fog fog and more fog, this photo was taken at Atiamuri, my family used to live about 10 miles from here.... I DO NOT MISS IT ! Oh and there is water just to the left, the Waikato River again.

The most awesome stretch of water in the North Island.. Huka Falls, about 2 miles up the road is the birth of the Waikato River as it leaves Lake Taupo... This is the river narrowing to get through a gorge, it is amazing.

This is the closest my foot is ever going to get to this stetch of water, for sure! Anyone with a death wish can get closer. Huka Falls again obviously.

Lake Taupo, what can I say? My foot looked prettier than the Lake yesterday! It was dull and overcast.... shame.

My foot, encased in my shoe, there was no way I was walking over all those rocks in me bare feet! This is a mountain stream at the base of Mount Ruapehu.... and that water was friggin freezing!

Mount Ruapehu, she looks naked without her snow! Across the bottom of the photo is a dirty line, that is where the lahar came through... if flowed down the mountain then took a curve and out across the countryside to sea.... just last week! It would have been amazing to see!

Just south of Hunterville, there is a small lake - big pond ? and it has this "thing" floating in it... It looks like a shark's fin from a distance.... It has always made me smile cos it's in the middle of nowhere! And I have NO IDEA what it is or why it's there, it just IS.

So, there ya go, me Road Trip in photos...

On to the rest of my day.....

Done the gym thing, picked up the ironing from last week (ooops forgot it), picked up Stew from work, he's not feeling well, picked up kids from school... Brylee has a huge fat lip - collided with some other kid...and am now contemplating what to feed my lot for dinner.

Don't think I will be going to gym tonight, I'm feeling a bit jaded. Must be all the travelling catching up with me, and I don't sleep well in strange beds, even with my own pillow! Oh well..onward.

I have been asked on numerous ocassions now about my Tummy Tuck, so tomorrow I am going to dedicate my post to MY TUMMY TUCK, that way I will not be repeating my story over and over again! Not that I mind, but it will be good to try and answer all the questions I've been asked in one hit! Hope no one minds, gory details and all...... to come !!!

Now, don't expect me to have it up first thing! I shall have to do my usual morning routine first, so expect it around lunchtime, all going well.

That's me for today, unless something amazing happens in the meantime.. bye for now.