RPM TODAY????

Well, wadda ya reckon??? I think I will go to the gym, do my weights session before the RPM class starts and see how I feel before committing to it. Maybe I will, maybe I won't.

Maybe I'll go to the chemist and try and get some more "stuff" to try and knock this cold on the head before it gets any worse... have started to bloody cough now... hurts me chest, but my temp has gone down, so that's good.

I so want to be 100% when we go to Australia, I want to enjoy it to the max, and go on a Rollercoaster again too!!!! Imagine trying to do that with a pounding headache and a streaming nose... no I don't think so mate!

Common sense prevailed.... I went to the gym, I did the weight session and a whole lot of lunges (forgive me legs!) but I did not do RPM.... and I feel good about that. Some other poor bugger who had not been able to get in DID! So that's me good deed for the day taken care of.

Picked up the last of our travel documents from the Travel Agent, so all is in hand for Sunday's departure.... oooooo can't wait.


Some things I am really looking forward to on our holiday:

1. When the seatbelt light comes on in the plane, I will actually be able to do it up! Last time I "pretended" it was done up, I was too ashamed to ask for an extenstion, actually , I didn't know you could get one, but I still would have been too embarrassed to ask.

2. When I want to eat some foood, I will be able to lower the lap tray right down and actually use it.. last time my belly was in the way so much that I simply couldn't use the tray at all.

3. I will FIT in the toilet, so If I need to pee ... I can.... last time I had to hold on for hours cos when I tried to get into the loo I wouldn't fit.. well I did, but the door couldn't shut... it was mortifyingly embarrassing !

4. When I get on the rollercoaster, the attendant won't have to come around and literally sit on the safety harness to get it to lock into place.. I will fit easily !!! And I won't be shitting myself every second thinking it is going to pop open and chuck me out!

And... I can go shopping, I can swim, I can totally enjoy myself and not feel like everyone is looking at me and thinking "Look at that fat ugly woman"...... God I can't wait!

My appetite came back, with a vengence! I think though, I am stress eating for sure! Tomorrow is "Biopsy" day of me nether regions..... and I'm am once again shitting myself... am trying to keep busy to take my mind off it, but every time I remember I get the chills and my hair literally stands on end! I hate this feeling big time!

Right, it's the end of the day, one more sleep till I can Hopefully put the most stressful time in my recent history behind me... I'm off to have a sauna, then nite nite.