MORE PHOTOS FROM YESTERDAY...

Well... here is more photos from yesterday's visit with Khady:

 ABOVE:  Great Aunt Khady and Dante.
  

ABOVE:  Checking out the water feature.

ABOVE: having fun ...

ABOVE:  Well... Dante was.  BEX... not so much!

ABOVE:  Babies and water eh?  They just can't get enough of it.  
It was a stinking hot day, so perfectly fine to be getting wet.

Now... Today?

Stew is going to pick up me lemon  ...I mean my Sewing Machine for me.   I do hope it behaves itself for longer this time back.

I groomed around Teddy's face last night, and tried to clip off the big scabby bits on his rump as they are healed but just held there by his hair.
He snapped at me!  First time he's ever done that.  I wasn't impressed.  
Now I have to tidy up Coco too.  She gets heaps of knots on her ears and muzzle.  So, fingers crossed she's not in a bad mood like Teddy was.

After that, I'm going to stop in at the Hospice Shop and drop off 3 bags of clothes, and pick up a bit of 'Treasure' I have on hold out the back.  Just a few bits 'n' bobs.

Then HOME, to work on me suntan before summer is over.

Fingers crossed for a quiet, drama free day.

ONWARD...

BRYLEE:  is doing just fine.  As she's a 'Drama Queen', this sort of happening is right up her alley!
She wanted to leave for school early today, I'm sure it was so she could yak about 'it' more to her friends!  *smiles*
She was not scared of going back in the least.  So that's great.

Got caught in me dressing gown, start naked under it... by a knock at the door.
Our neighbours arrived home from China a couple of days ago, and she came over to invite Bex and I out to lunch on Friday.
How nice is that?

Right, now that I'm clean and presentable again, I'm putting on me face and going out.

I decided a while ago that I needed to find a new hair salon.
So today I did the rounds down at Manukau Mall.
  
Highest quote to colour/tone/trim my hair?

$249.50!  AND that was with 'half price' off the 'trim',as I was a first time customer, so I would ONLY be paying $49.50 for the trim.

Lowest quote... $175.00
I am going with the lowest one!

I am utterly gobsmacked at the prices they charge nowdays! 

OK, I was only paying around $125 at the salon I usually go to... but you get what you pay for eh?

I was really, really unhappy with my last trim and colour... so I'm only too happy to pay a bit more for a job I am happy with.   
Fingers crossed I am happy with it!  I get my hair done next Wednesday.  Can't wait!

 ABOVE: Hospice Treasure.   I just love that dress... it clings a bit so I will put it aside until I've lost a bit more weight.  The giraffe t-shirt, well I'm sure Bex can do something with it.  She loves giraffes.
Little blue glass candle holder... so cute.
The little cane thingee will hang on my cane room divider with appointments in it I think.

ABOVE:  this dress looks like NOTHING in the photo, but let me tell you... it's made with the softest pure merino wool and is going to keep me nice and warm in winter.  Again, it's a bit small right now... but I WILL fit it in a few months!

End of Day:  didn't get up to much after lunch.  Bit of TV, bit of sewing/tidying up etc.
Off to bed shortly, so...
nite nite

I MIGHT NOT BLOG TODAY

That is all.  Unless I can find something worth yakking about.
I am starting to feel like I am blogging about nothing.
What are YOU doing?

ONWARD...

I'm here!   

Bex and I drove over to my Sister-in-Laws for lunch.  It was really lovely to spend a couple of hours with her in her gorgeous back yard.
Dante LOVED her water feature.
I have squillions of photos of that.  But I will hold off showing you right now... cos I've got news!!!

The Good:  My sewing machine has been repaired and is ready to be picked up.
When I dropped it off the repairman said he would not be able to even look at it for 2 weeks or so.  
And of course, it was going to cost AT LEAST $120.

Upshot?  Repaired in less than a week.  AND NO COST.
I am so happy about that.

The NOT So Good:  While driving home from West Auckland, my phone rings.  Bex takes the call... and then holds the phone up to my ear to talk to ...  Brylee's 'Home' Class Teacher.
He informs that there has been an incident in Brylee's Maths class today that he needed to talk to me about.
SADLY, I immediately think "Oh hell, what has she done?".

Nothing.

A boy in her maths class had 'presented a knife in class', and while no one came to any physical harm...  Brylee was very upset and was spending the rest of the day with the school Counsellors.   

I was a bit like "OH HELL, what have we done sending our kid to a school like that?"  But the teacher said it was the first time (ever),  he had this sort of situation happen.  

So, I offered to come and get Brylee, but he said she was fine and would come home as per usual.  I was OK with that.

We had a chat about how Brylee is a 'Drama Queen', we both laughed and agreed she was no doubt going to blow it out of all proportion for a while!

Still... I am sure it was very scary for her.  I'm going to let her let off steam when she gets home and we shall just deal with it.

I do wonder if she might be a bit scared to go back ?  Time will tell.

So, would ya look at that?  I found something to yabber on about.... eventually!
Don't ya just envy my life?  Really?  NOT.

I don't go LOOKING for drama, I really don't!

So.  Brylee gets home and fills in the blanks.
The boy was fighting with a girl in the class.  Then he pulled a knife on her.  The kids in the class all scatter, but Brylee was scared shitless and got tangled up with her school bag.  

Then Brylee gets up from her chair and in her haste to get out of the room, tripped and fell over!  She has a graze on her elbow and a sore cheek, but otherwise OK physically.

The maths teacher got cut on his arm disarming the boy apparently.

So just a bit more 'scary' hearing the full story.
*sigh*


A few photos from today:

Nice eh?

End of Day: well!  It started out with me being in a right shitty... and ended quite well!  It was an eventful day after all.
Hope you liked todays photos, cos I've got more to share tomorrow... AND TREASURE to be gotten.
nite nite

ELMO WHERE ARE YOU?

Yesterday I showed you the Elmo soft toy Bex made, which promptly got claimed by Dante... and I said I would show you what Dante did with Elmo....

ABOVE:  well... there ya go!  Elmo got put in the big pot outside!  And over the steps barrier.  There's A LOT inside that big pot...  several plastic boats from the paddle pool, and now Elmo too.   
(We took Elmo out of course).  

I can remember Miss Sienna putting all sorts of things in that exact same pot, when she was visiting from Australia too.

 ABOVE:  Dante listening to music with Griffin.
Very cute.

ABOVE: Granddad had just weeded the vege pots.  Dante decided to give it a go too.

ABOVE:  Sharing the fun with Daddy.

Granddad was mowing the lawns, so Daddy and Dante had a go at hand clipping the lawn...

ABOVE:   it was lots of fun!

ABOVE:  after all that hard work, Dante and his Daddy fell asleep.

*squeals*...

ABOVE:  I'm not sure if I've already squealed about this?  If not: It has only taken 35 years !!! But my school age kids are now making their own lunches.  I am thrilled to bits.

Today?  Bex and Dante are off to Playcenter this morning, and I am off to the Hospice Shop after lunch.  My shift has changed to accommodate another lady who needed to switch her afternoon to a morning.  

So this morning is all MINE!  I am going to do a bit of sewing, then maybe lie in the sun for a little while before leaving.

ONWARD...

FELICITY:  10 years!  I will be on the freakin' Old Age Pension by then.  Bloody hell.

Well... I've gotten a bit of sewing done... and now I need to put me face on (takes all of 8 minutes), then head off to the Hospice Shop.

While I was sewing this morning, I heard Teddy scratching around and shuffling behind my table...

ABOVE:  it would appear lying in a plastic box is better than on the couch with Coco?

 ABOVE:  He only just fits.  Weird dog.  And still miserable.  I'm waiting another couple of days before taking off the cone.  His itchy spot is all healed.  Yes Anon, the Paw Paw cream has helped him I think.  Though he hated me putting it on.

Right... gotta go.  Catch ya later... 

LATER... and it was incredibly quiet at the shop this afternoon.  I got a nappy disposal thingee for Lacy.  That's about all.
Clearly it's VERY QUIET in blogland ... so I'll bugger off and investigate dinner.
Bex is preparing Beef Spare ribs/wedges and salad.  
I'm starving!  Can't wait for dinner.

End of Day:  early, but I'm feeling really hot and crabby.  I think everyone is actually.  Steve just got home (8pm) so he hasn't even seen his baby boy today, unless he saw him at 6am?  Of course, Dante is now in bed.  Sound asleep for the night. 
I'm going to do bugger all this evening, I just finished a project for a Birthday next month.  And it's too hot to start anything else right now.
nite nite

NO DODGING IT...

Stew and I are off to do the grocery shopping first thing this morning, then we can relax for the rest of the day ... knowing it's done.

Steve is off to work AGAIN today, he's worked 7 days in a row now.  I think he's taking a day off during the coming week to compensate.

Bex is hoping Steve will be home by early afternoon, as she wants them to take Dante out to watch planes coming in at the Airport.  Right now Dante is fascinated with planes.

We get heaps flying near us.  We are just 'off' the direct flight path of all planes coming into Auckland, and get to see some awesome big planes.

There is a 'viewing' car park about half a kilometer (0.8 miles) from the landing strip, and you can park there and see the planes REALLY CLOSE UP.  Dante is going to love it... or hate it!  It can be quite loud.  But exciting too.

Now... here is what I got done last night:

 ABOVE:  a good start on this little project for Rena's birthday.
I've got heaps of stitching to do now.  Then build it up a bit... border and so on.

ABOVE:  The face of MISERY.  He is so, so unhappy.  His sore patch is healing and getting itchy.  Ted goes berserk every now and then trying to gnaw himself.  Or he runs up and down the house, throwing himself on the floor and rolling around trying to rub the itchy place.  

Poor bugger.

He likes to lie under Stew's lounge chair, which makes Stew mad because when he wants to get out of his chair he has to wait for Ted to move, and Ted doesn't WANT to move sometimes.
He's been 'squashed' a few times.  WHOOPS!

So, that's me for now... I will pop back later ...

ONWARD...

LYNDA: thanks for that tip.  I will look at it to, because I love to see the planes coming in too.

LYNDA:  we think that site is AMAZING!  Thanks so much.  We will try not to get addicted.   I'm going to download the App on me phone... then I can point my phone at a plane and it's details will come up!  So cool.

Antihistamines.  Yes he has them.  Don't help.  Steroids help, but I try to only use them when he's really bad.  They are not that good for a little dog, as they can damage kidneys etc.

Yaaa.  Groceries bought and put away.  Time for a bite to eat, then lie in the sun.   Gorgeous, gorgeous day out there!

 ABOVE:  Bex just made an ELMO.  

ABOVE:  Dante saw it and screamed and cried until he could have it.  I will show you WHAT he did with it.... tomorrow.

I have just enjoyed an hour in the sun and in the cool spa pool.  I feel WONDERFUL!  I need to do more 'outside' time I think.  I really loved it.

End of Day:  well apart from the grocery shopping, today has been lovely.
Now... off to do a wee bit more sewing, then bed.
nite nite

AWESOME MOVIE...

If ya like movies with NO guns/warfare/futuristic/violent/smutty content... and you are over 40, you will LOVE 'Saving Mr Banks'!

I loved it, and Stew did too.  Which surprised me as it really was an almost 'chick flick'.

I'm not surprised though, I have yet to see a movie with Tom Hanks that is a flop!  And his leading lady in this movie, Emma Thompson, was awesome too.  
So.... it gets a 10/10 from me.

I am going to buy the DVD just as soon as it comes out ... for sure.
It will get added to my 'Tom Hanks' movie collection.  *smiles*

Now... as for today?  Weigh in!  Yep, that's me ... all roly poly me!  I look just fine from the neck up eh?   Oh and me toes are skinny!  Wanna see?  Nah, didn't think so.

So, this is the first weigh in, this year, that 'counts'.  My new starting weight for THIS YEAR will be written down and worked on.
No numbers.  Just a starting point... and from then on every Saturday I will report the -/+, though I am hoping there will be mostly -'s.

Quite excited really.  It was around this time last year I embarked on my ONWARD FOR LIFE PLAN, and I've learnt a lot.  I can't binge.  I can't pretend the scales are invisible.  I can't 'do' sweets.  (f*#k they make me feel ill!).
But I can follow a sensible diet with a few treats included, and lose weight.

So.  That's what I am doing again.

Grocery shopping sometime today.  Washing.  General housework.  All the usual shit.
Oh yaaa.

ONWARD...

I stood on the scales, and if they are to be believed, I lost 6.1 kilos since last Saturday.  I'm not even going to record that cos I know a lot of it will have been fluid.
Today's weight has been recorded... and now I get back into it.  Feeling good!

ABOVE:  I have decided to start on Rena's Birthday present.  Her birthday is 22nd March, so plenty of time.  I'm going to use that adorable picture above in some way.  

Well... grocery shopping has been deferred till tomorrow.  Nice.
I'm sewing and Stew is about to do some lawn mowing...well, after he's watched one of the Rugby 9 games that is.
Kids are happily entertained and Bex is crocheting.  We are all happy.  
Just like the Waltons?  Maybe!   lol 

I lay in the sun late this afternoon, AND  had a soak in the spa, which was pure bliss.  It's at 30 degrees C... so cool but not freezing.  So really nice.

Now?  Gunna do a bit more sewing... then have dinner.  Stew's cooking tonight.  Cottage Pie using the meat stew from last night.  Should be yum.

Dinner WAS lovely, but 2 hours later and I've got dreadful heartburn. NOT acid reflux YET.  Fingers crossed it doesn't develop into that.  I cannot think why I have heartburn?  Beef/mince stew with potato on top for dinner?  And a handful of crackers/cheese and tomato relish for lunch.  That is all I've had.  *grrrrr*

End of Day:  well a really hot and humid day today, so glad we can use the spa to cool down.  I got a bit accomplished on the little Ballerina tonight.  Will show ya tomorrow.
nite nite

VALENTINES DAY...

Stew and I don't really 'do' days like today.  
As far as I'm concerned Valentines Day is purely a commercialised 'day' for retailers to rake in the money.

I don't need a special day once a year to let Stew know I love him!  He knows I do by the simple fact that I sleep with him!
Come on!  I'm only gunna sleep with a bloke I love eh?  lol

But, we are going out tonight.  Courtesy of Steve and Bex.  They kinda said we should go out... take a night for just the two of us.
So we are going to the movies.  

We shall be watching 'Saving Mr Banks', cos it's got Tom Hanks in it.  I loves Tom Hanks.  Stew would be in trouble if Tom turned up on my doorstep!  *smiles*

As for TODAY?  Housework, sewing, all the usual stuff I get up to.
Nothing riveting.  

 ABOVE:  Miss Muppet... she is such a darling wee girl.  Full of life.  She's got some of her Granddad's dinner on her face.  lol

ABOVE:  Keera in my Dad's armchair.  It was over at Lacy's for a while, but I brought it back.   It's a very comfortable chair.

Right, gunna go do some stuff....

ONWARD...

4th day totally 'on track' and I can already feel my mood lifting.  Now I just have to hold onto my resolve and NOT cave at the movies.

ABOVE:  I'M DOING THIS.

So far today I've done some housework, sorted out a few more clothes to take to Hospice, and stood on the scales 52,000 times.
*sigh*   No really, I've only stood on them about 4 times.  NAKED.

I'm obsessed with those numbers coming down, when in fact it shouldn't be about a NUMBER.
I know this.  And I need to get back to ONCE A MONTH weigh ins.  Edited:  I'm going to weigh every Saturday, but only record on my sidebar monthly.  I think I want more frequent weigh ins this time around.  Maybe doing that will help me haul in any slip ups quicker?

Today, standing on the scales that much was an aberration for me.  

Feeling really positive that in the next 6-8 months I will fit the jeans in my bottom drawer (size 14).  And my top half (the problem half) will be at least a 16.

It's been a nice afternoon.  I've watched some telly, prepared a HUGE beef stew for the family, which should be enough for two dinners for all of us.

I've also got a folder and graph set up to record my weight losses, and also a lined refill to jot down feelings, motivations, successes etc.  

Now... I better get tidy for going out with me hubby.  Can't wait to watch the movie... 

So.   I'm ready to go out. Dressed in blue tights and a black T-shirt.  Bex said NO WAY was I going out on a 'Date Night' dressed like that, so the bitch dragged me down to my wardrobe and made me change!  Like... wtf?  Talk about being bossed around in me own house!   Pfffft.  Now I'm dressed appropriately it would appear.

Black tights, pretty blue/white tunic and a black cotton top.  READY NOW.

ABOVE:  yes, I was hot.  Holding Mr Crabby Pants.  It's nearly his bedtime and our Dante gets crabby when he's tired. 

End of Day:  run down on the movie tomorrow.  It's freakin' late as and I'm off to bed.
nite nite

A NOTHING DAY

Today I have absolutely NOTHING on my agenda.

I'm in a pissy mood.  I might even go back to bed once the kids are off to school.

I should be getting on with my Dresden Plate Quilt, but I don't want to work on that with my little Brother machine.

So... *sigh*... I shan't.

The only good thing I'm happy about today is that last night, after dinner, I didn't have a thing to eat.  I wanted to, I craved something sweet.   But I kept my resolve and didn't cave in.
That's good eh?

The blood pressure 'patch' on my upper arm is a bit tender.  I hope there isn't anything nasty going on under that thing.  It hurts when I press it.  Maybe I should stop pressing it then!  Derrrrr.

There are no photos to share today, same as yesterday.  No point taking yet another photo of my latest Mug Rug... or even the babes.  They don't change much after just a day or two.
Dante is cutting his first two molars, so is a bit grizzly.  
I'm sure he doesn't want me to photograph his erupting molars ... and I bet you are glad of that.

I will leave you with this:

It's my crabby face.  See, I didn't even have any make up on!  Don't care.  Might just go back to bed soon, hopefully will get up on the other side later... I hope you are having a better day than me.

ONWARD...

Well, I stayed in bed till 8.15, then got up just in time to say 'bye' to Brylee and Griffin as they headed off to school.  Then I attacked my wardrobe.  I've got 3 really big bags of clothes I'm taking to the Hospice Shop. 

And Karen... none of it is worth sending down to you.  It's all old and worn, or stuff my mother left here that is far too small for me, even if I lost 20 kilos!  Also, it's not quite my style.
Someone will benefit from her clothes I'm sure.

Third day being 'on track' and I am already feeling more positive.  Amazing.  Now I just need to keep it up!
Please NO ONE go and upset me cos I will just head straight to the chocolate!  I'm bad like that.

Stew and I are going out on Friday night (Valentine's Day).  Probably go to a movie.  Hmmm... that will be a big challenge as I always have lollies and an ice cream at the movies! 

Maybe I better take my own food?  Crackers, cheese, relish?  Can I have a picnic at the movies ?  Might be worth a try.

Steve is home from work.  Rained off.  And he's got a dicky tummy.

I still haven't done a thing today!  

Ahhh NO... I've put me face on.  And that is all.

And now I'm going to cook some lunch for Bex and myself.
Courgette, onion, tomato and some bacon.  Yum!

Well it's official.  I have done NOTHING today!  Literally nothing.  I had a nana nap this afternoon, Bex cooked dinner and miss Keera is here for a little while, as Lacy is on her course.

BELLA:  a courgette is a zucchini, or some sort of squash.  We eat them cooked.  You can get green or yellow courgettes, and they can grow quite large.  Most people pick them before they get too big.

End of Day:  a very so-so day.  In a right funk.  Hopefully I snap out of it soon.
nite nite

TAKING THE LEMON FOR A RIDE... AND I'M A RIGHT TWIT

What was going to be a lovely day sewing/lying in the sun/just relaxing... is now starting with me taking my BLOODY LEMON of a sewing machine back to the repair shop.  
I am beyond annoyed.  The repair shop is in New Lynn, so it's going to take me at least half an hour to get over there.  Grrrrr.
I may have to console myself with a fat quarter or two while I'm there.  *smiles*  Actually NO, why would I spend a bloody CENT in their shop?  Stuff that.


I needed to make a phone call yesterday... and it took me FOREVER to figure out how to do that... ON MY NEW PHONE!  Seriously, I didn't have a clue.

I had only made a couple of other calls on it... and I'd found the number in my contacts, or on the 'net, and I just had to touch the number that came up to make the call.

As for manually putting the number up on the screen?  Nope, had NO IDEA!  Now that I've mastered THAT, me and my phone are getting on just fine.  lol   (I did feel like a right TWIT though).

Well... once the kids are off to school I am heading off with the LEMON.  Wish me luck.  Not that it will do any good.  It will probably be in the repair shop for a week or more, and they won't offer me a replacement or loaner.  
They never have before, so I don't expect it now.

I must get my paperwork out and see just when I last took it in?  Sometime last year.

ONWARD...

Well, an hour and a half later, my machine is at the Repair Shop.
The Repair man tested it in front of me, and it did it's thing... beautifully.  It refused to sew anything but a straight stitch.
I asked him what it was going to cost me to get it repaired, and he said probably over $100.
To which I replied "Like hell!".
Then I told him how many times my machine had been in the Repair Shop, April/May last year being the last time.

He said NO, it couldn't have been there last year as it would have had a repair 'sticker' on it, if it had been.

I told him I could prove it!  And that there was no way I was paying one cent for it to be fixed yet again. So the repair man said he would get his boss to ring me.  I am now waiting to hear back from him, probably after 2pm.

TRACY:  the repair man said it was just a minor problem and was easily fixed just by tightening a screw inside the machine.  But it was still going to cost me over $100 for labour.  We will see.

MARIA:  as if!  There is no way they would do anything of the sort, they have never admitted my machine is a dud/lemon.
And there is no way in hell I would want another machine off them.  NO WAY.  NEVER GUNNA HAPPEN.

Why should I have to trade it in to get a 'better' machine?  That machine cost me $3,600.  It should NEVER have caused so many issues in the first place.

I have just finished a very cute bird Mug Rug for a friend's birthday.  On my little cheap Brother sewing machine.  Thank goodness I have a 'back up' machine.

End of Day:  a shitty day.  No more. No less.
nite nite

QUARTERLY CHECK UP, DAVIDS EMPORIUM THEN ?

I have a doctor's appointment sometime today... I can't remember when, so will give them a call at 9 am to find out.
It's just my 3 monthly check up.  Probably be over in 5 minutes flat.

After that Bex and I are going to David's Emporium... I think she wants more wool and bits 'n' bobs for her crocheting.  She's going great guns on it.

Luckily I have no desire to pick up a crochet hook!
I am really enjoying my sewing.  

BLONDIE:  my Dresden Plate Quilt is on hold for  a couple of days longer as I have an unexpected project to whip up and get off before a friend's birthday.

THEN I shall get right back into it.  I have no plans to put it aside again.  It is TOP OF MY TO DO LIST.
And I can't wait to see it on my bed.  *squeals*  It is going to look lovely.

Ummm... the only other thing I want to do while out is pick up a Sports top for Brylee.  I finally know her 'House' colour:  PURPLE. 

DIET:  DISMAL.  I think since Christmas I've put on about 5 kilos!  What the hell am I thinking?
Chocolate.  It's evil.  And I can't seem to get enough.  I put it down to mood.  And, when I see a gain on the scales, I get grumpy and think.. 'So what, who really cares?'.

Well, I do care.  But my resolve fluctuates.  Every night I go to bed with all the motivation in the world to do better the next day.  Next day... one slip and I am all "Oh well, in for a penny, in for a pound".  
And the heat, hot flushes and mid afternoon sugar lows send me off the wagon BIG TIME.

Low blood sugars send me into a really bad state:  Shaking, sweating, feeling like I'm going to throw up, faint... the list goes on.  So, I grab something high in carbs or sugar and about half an hour later I'm feeling good again!

But really, I need to work out how to keep my blood sugar levels up/level,  without having to eat crap.

Planning.  I think I need to sit down and work out exactly what I am going to consume each day, have it in the fridge/pantry and STICK TO IT.  Count points/calories maybe?

And... get more exercise!  While I love my sewing, it's not doing a bloody thing for my level of fitness.  I need to dedicate at least an hour a day to fitness.  An hour is surely doable!

Right, now that I've made you read all that, I better go and do something... hang some washing I think.

ONWARD... 

Well...... doctor visit went OK-ish.  My blood pressure is way too high, my blood sugar levels are way too high, and I have pure chocolate running through my veins.
WHOOPS.
They have changed the blood pressure medication to a patch I have to wear constantly.  On me shoulder.  Here's hoping I don't get a reaction to it.  

I've got to go back if I feel dizzy (it can happen apparently), and in two weeks I must get me blood pressure checked again.

While out I also got Brylee's Sports Shirt... size small ... which is going to SWAMP her cos it's so big!  Nice colour though:

ABOVE:  See?  I will take a photo of it ON Brylee once she's home.  I am guessing she will look ridiculous! 

Bex and I are now waiting for Dante to wake up so we can go down to David's Emporium, and the supermarket.
I'm going to get some rice crackers for myself, and have them instead of bread.  I have been having too much bread lately too.
And spaghetti.   WAY too much spaghetti!  I love spaghetti as much as I love chocolate.

But, while I was sitting at the Doctors I kept thinking... all my health issues (well, most of them) are totally down to weight, and stupid food choices.

And ya know what?  I CAN do something about that.  It is totally in my hands, and I am going to stop self-sabotaging and get on with turning it around again.  We all know I can do it.  I just have to prove it. 

We went shopping. 

ABOVE:  Coupled with what we already had, I'm pretty sure I have enough crackers for now!

ABOVE:  This is as close to chocolate as I'm going to get from now on.  I shall use this cute little melamine tray for my crackers.

Bex and I just had lunch, late again.  I had a small assortment of crackers, some sliced ham and cheese (very little cheese) and Tomato Relish.  And I feel just fine.  

I can't wait until that 'good' feeling comes back.
You know, the one where you actually feel you LIKE yourself again.

And I want my bra to stop trying to cut me in half!

 ABOVE:   I 'doctored' a box for Dante to play with... he didn't like it on his head, but he did like putting his most favourite soft toy in it.  He is really loving his dog right now.

ABOVE:  yeah thanks for that Bex!  I love you too.  Sneaky girl, taking a most unflattering photo of me!  AND she put it on her Facebook too.  

I will get her back ...eventually.  *smiles*

EXCUSE THE BAD LANGUAGE TO FOLLOW:

FUCK FUKKITY FUCK!!!  My goddam bloody sewing machine has broken down again.  OMG I want to smash it with a sledge hammer.
One minute it's sewing perfectly, then it decides to sew backwards, or in the same place... and no matter what I do, it won't sew properly.
So, I'm using my 'spare' little Brother machine now.

Taking the bloody mega expensive, piss poor excuse of a sewing machine BACK to the repair shop tomorrow.  

I am so angry right now I could scream ...

End of Day: I'm still seething with anger over my sewing machine.  My LEMON.  
Dinner tonight was lamb chop casserole and veges.  It was very nice.
nite nite