DENTIST AGAIN

Well... I've got the dentist again today. It's not till 2.30 this afternoon, so I have lots of time to stress out about it.

Though, I am not feeling quite so scared this time... cos I don't have to get IV sedation, and I know that once the numbing kicks in it doesn't hurt at all.  And that's what freaks me out the most, anticipation of pain, and well... PAIN. 

Unfortunately my upper gum is still sore from last week's work, so after today's appointment I will need to take a couple of weeks break .

No work today at all... which is nice.  I will do some more prep work on the baby quilt this morning I think.  Keep myself busy *smiles*

ONWARD...

I wasn't going to talk about this.
But.
I got some very unsettling news last night.
I'm not actually able to share details.
But I'm SO, SO SCARED.

I hardly slept.
I stayed in bed till 9.50 am this morning crying.
It could all be OK... but it's the unknown, the 'what it's', the pure fear and dread that's getting to me.

The dentist?  Not given it a thought to be honest.


Some things are just more important right now.

So if my blog posts are a bit short, to the point, not interesting, or even missing... just know it's because something much more IMPORTANT is going on.

And I'm really, really shitting myself.

I hope in a week or two I can share ... good news I really, really hope.

OLD MOO:  please don't mention the 'what' in a comment.


As Stew just said to me, it's a shame I'm not working today... I could do with the distraction! Instead I am just stewing, mind is going around and around in circles.


I actually looked at the clock before and thought, oh, dentist in a couple of hours, and my stomach didn't do a flip flop!  That's weird.

I'm TRYING to work on the baby quilt.  But keep getting side tracked. Phone calls. Texts.  PM's on facebook.  Peeps are 'fishing'.  No fish being caught right now sorry.

ABOVE: So I'm so distracted  I've turned up at the dentist's 35 minutes too early!
So let's  just sit here and shit myself SOME MORE. 

I'm so sorry for alarming everyone! Hopefully in a couple of weeks I can say 'False alarm' and all will be well in our little bubble again.  *smiles*

I just had a massive 'wobble' and needed to share how I was feeling.

The dental visit went 'well'... as far as having ya teeth drilled goes.
I'm still alive, I cried the whole way through it again... but the Lavender/Orange and Gerber oils on a tissue that they gave me was lovely.
Quite calming.

Funny how ya expect your face to be blown up out of all proportion when it's all numb eh?  It's gunna take hours to get feeling back, cos I have to get double the 'normal' amount of injections... cos I'm  SUPER SENSITIVE apparently.  Typical... I'm a pain in the bum.

So, I'm starving but can't eat in case I bite myself!  Food through a straw perhaps?

Well... luckily by the time I'd cooked dinner my numbness was wearing off, so I managed to eat dinner without harming myself.

Then I looked at Stew and said "I need chocolate".  So we went to the supermarket and bought some chocolate.

I'm now feeling ill.  And I didn't even have much!  Pffffft.

Will be heading off to bed early tonight, hoping to actually sleep tonight.