And for once I really feel like it's a hump day.
So over this week already.
I found out a couple of days ago that a dear friend of our family passed away and it has been on my mind ever since.
I'd not seen her in about 9 years, and I could have easily visited her in that time.
Why do we let friendships lapse? Or just not keep in touch? It's sad.
I am going to do my best to not let that happen to the friends I do have.
That is why I am going to do my best to get down to Palmerston North again very soon, AND go and visit a dear friend up in Coromandel soon too.
Life is too short to not keep in touch with your friends.
I know that in some instances I don't keep in touch because I am embarrassed about my weight. It does control what I do to a big extent, and that is sad.
It is in my hands to 'fix' it, but it's just so hard!
Your mind and heart has to be into it 100%, and as I have shown over the past 7 years, mine isn't anymore. I go from being totally committed to not giving a rat's arse from one day to the next.
Depressing. And I really don't know how to change that anymore.
It's like it's just out of my control.
So... I'm heading into today feeling down.
But not out.
I'm NEVER OUT.
I keep trying ... some days not much, some days heaps!
I think being AWARE is better than nothing.
As for my plans for today... sewing Xmas gifts.
And this afternoon the Archgola man is coming... I had to postpone his visit yesterday as I was out with me car/shopping etc.
I am hoping to get the ball rolling on it asap.
ONWARD...
Steve and Bex recently had family photos taken at Playcentre, and here's two of the best ones:
PINS ... are being very mean today! I've just got pricked for the 3rd time, and copious amounts of blood has been lost. Shame I can't use it for me next blood tests, which are due. *sigh*
So I've been a semi-busy girl this afternoon sewing.
I think I got the Archgola guy wrong and he's coming tomorrow? So... I spent all day waiting for nothing.
My car won't be ready till Friday now, so that's fine, I shall catch the bus to Patchwork class on Friday! That will be fun eh? lol
End of Day: we've had a lovely evening!
Our son Russell called in for a few hours as he's up here for work. Then Steve arrived home with his new van for work. So lots of photos to share tomorrow.
For now though, it's freakin' late and I'm off to bed.
nite nite
I have been seeing a psychologist about my weight, that's how sick I am of myself. Highly recommend it!
ReplyDeleteOh Chris this makes me so sad. I had a very close friend who no longer keeps contact with me and I think a lot of it had to do with her putting on a lot of weight, your friends would never care about your weight, they just want you to be healthy and happy. You know you have it inside you to make changes you have done it before. Don't me so tough on yourself, you definitely are a very strong woman xxx
ReplyDeleteBex has such a beautiful smile.
ReplyDeleteWat a nice family photo. ...next year there will be 4 ....and maybe the next year 5???
ReplyDeleteIf your friends are real friends Chris they will love you no matter what you look like...they will be happy to see you! And getting out and about is soooo good for you! Fantastic family photos...those pins are buggers aren't they...get you when you least expect it!!
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Love the family photos of Steve, Bex and Dante:-)
ReplyDeleteSorry about losing your friend. It's sad when friends drift apart.They say "Friends come and go, but enemies accumulate". Lately I've been thinking about friends faces that I couldn't remember their names, the last few days the names have been coming back to me.
ReplyDeleteMid week hump day? isn't that kind of a redundant title?
Sorry to hear you are down. Hope you perk up. Great pictures of the kids.
ReplyDeleteGlad your day improved :-)
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