I LIE sometimes..... about staying on track..... but yesterday.... I DID STAY ON TRACK! And today.... I am going to do it AGAIN. I know each and every day will be a challenge - to turn the gains around and become that rather good looking woman again. I am vain, I think I looked good at 70 kgs, so .... I am heading there again.
No more crying while stuffing my mouth full of crap..... I hate feeling like such a failure.
Today is another chance to make myself feel fantastic.... to smile and be happy.... and...... it's only 3 more sleeps till the kids go back to school! Ya bloody hoooooo.
Next Monday... another small change.... I am going to drop the kids off at school and then go swimming .... and I am going to do that at least twice a week. I love swimming! Small steps....
The kids and I are going to have lunch in town with Stew today.... my immediate thought was "Fuck, what can I eat that doesn't have any carbs?"... and I felt a bit down.... until my memory kicked in ....
CHICKEN SALAD... YUMMY YUMMY..... ok, without all the salad dressing maybe. You can eat out healthily, YOU CAN.
So, we went to lunch, I ordered a chicken salad, forgot to say "hold the crispy noodles", so had to take them all off.... which I DID.... feeling like I did well. I also had... a big glass of ice. Perfect.
I am starting to get a good headache, no doubt from witholding all the carbs.. better go take a painkiller pill... or I will be miserable later.
I'm hanging in there, just. Stew is home and cooking dinner ...steak and whatever! I had some watermelon....and felt bad cos it was probably full of sugar. But so nice! It's so hot today... we are having a long hot summer for sure.
End of Day: and I made it through another day ON TRACK, no lies!!! Stew just ate a bowl full of nuts/fruit/seeds.. I had NONE!
NSV: I didn't eat the noodles, I did stay on track. nite nite.
Don't know about small steps dearie, that sounds more like a jolly big dive!
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You know, you have all these exciting changes in your life happening, Stew's job move, your potential home move, kids moving out, new start for Izzy, why not a new start for you?....just to round it all off, wouldn't that just be the perfect "lite" icing on the cake so to speak?...
ReplyDeleteTake the opportunity while you can, grab it with both hands and don't let go !!! Focus on the here and now as the future well, who knows?.. make it all count NOW..
"I'm gonna look GREAT in 2008, by watching what I ATE and losing this damn WEIGHT" :)..
not grammatically correct, but you know what I mean LOL :)
It's great to hear you sounding positive and upbeat again, Chris!
ReplyDeleteI am sure that things will be a little easier for you once the kids are back at school, and that you have a little more breathing space for yourself!
The swimming sounds like a GREAT plan and with that, I am sure that it will motivate you to stay on track with your eating too.
You CAN do this I am sure of it as you seem like an extremely determaind gal ;-)
Have a great weekend!
Hugs,
LL x
Small steps is right!! Good on you having that first day back on track, then the 2nd, 3rd seems to flow on.
ReplyDeleteIzzy is doing well - no she hasn't eaaten my veges (yet) Has 3-4 swims a day:-)
I dont know why you feel the need to tell us you were on track when you werent ya silly tart!!!
ReplyDeleteWe are here to support you not think ill of you if you had a bad day...
I luvs ya no matter what size you are... you will always have a potty mouth whether it be 130 kilos or 70 kilos.... hahaha
I think you need to get back to gym sessions... you were on fire when you were doing all your clases... I know you are moving.. but surely there is a gym that can set you up for just a few weeks!!!
I had a gain this week... *sigh* but I knew it.. everytime i put a piece of camambert in my gob or cashews... or corn chips.. or that can of scotch.. haha... bloody long weekend...
chin up chick.. lets get back into it...
Good to hear that you're doing well. Focus, focus, focus. (Maybe I should listen to my own advice!!). I'm with Wanna - we love you no matter what, don't feel the need to fib to us, you're fooling nobody. We are here for YOU and to support you in your journey. Big hugs! Love you heaps mate.
ReplyDeleteLunch sounds good today mate!! Keep it up, and you will have your rewards... Have a great day, and each small step in the right direction is a positive one.
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Oh yes please if you don't want the chicken I will take it off your hands :). Our kids don't go back till the 7th :(. Am mow ready for them to go back to school.
ReplyDeletefuckin awesome Chris!! im bloody proud of you, now have a great lunch and dont blow it coz you know you will be all down on yourself if you do and after a great day yesterday you dont need that hunny.
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Well done turning everything around again, small steps are brilliant. I love the fact you are going back to the pool, have fun!
ReplyDeleteEnjoy your chicken salad
Aarrrrgh. I am SO addicted to carbs. You did really well to resist them. xxx
ReplyDeleteChicken salad looks yum and you should be so proud for taking the noodles off..would have been so easy to say stuff it but you didnt ...looks like progress is in the making :) have a great weekend
ReplyDeleteCatch my blog and catch what Izzy did today. Swim - I reckon she could almost do the Cook Strait!
ReplyDeleteOOhh I know the feeling with the headaches, drink plenty of water,helps flush out the toxins.
ReplyDeleteOh no! No crispy noodle. I love the cripsy noodle.
ReplyDeleteIts hard chick... but you can do it...
ReplyDeleteGood for you!! :)
ReplyDeletewatermelon is healthy!! Eat as much as you like.
ReplyDeleteSounds like a good day. As per the watermelon. Its one fruit you do not have to worry about. Most of it is water. So enjoy, and stop stressing about being perfect. Have a wonderful weekend.
ReplyDeleteWell done you for getting back on track, AND for staying there too!
ReplyDeleteKeep it up hun...
Hugs,
LL x
Oh yes I forgot, do enjoy your pedicure. Its going to make you feel oh so relaxed.
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